it's past 12 am when i slip into bed.
it's cold, even with 3 blankets and i can't help but shiver.
as i lay my head down, i can hear the wind howling outside.
'i'll close it later'
12 turns into 2 as i toss and turn, unable to feel comfortable and safe.
finally, i sink into sleep.
it's past 12 pm when i wake up.
my mind is still foggy and i feel as though i could sleep for hours more.
i slip off the bed, shaking the sweat covered blankets away.
in the kitchen, i pop my pills with a sip of water before heading to the bathroom.
i get ready; washing my face, changing, a bit of makeup.
mum calls for lunch.
i think i'll pass, i feel full.
it's now 12:30pm.
i grab the keys off the table and head outside. chewing a piece of gum, i head to work.
it's 2 pm when i slide into the car again. my eyes are hazy and glazed, but a couple blinks has my vision cleared.
i pop another piece of gum.
it's 2:30 pm when i get home.
straight to class. log on, begin lessons and coursework.
it's 6 pm.
mum has called for dinner.
i think i'm still full.
i'll get some food after i finish up school.
it's 8 pm.
i head to the garage to workout.
looks like my water is empty.
it's 9:30 pm.
i head inside.
the house is warm, unlike the frigid garage.
i slide onto the floor, resting my pounding head against the still carpet.
i'm so tired.
i don't think i'm hungry.
it's 10 pm now.
i grab a pill from the kitchen before swallowing it and heading to the shower.
it's 11 pm now.
the water has gone cold as i stare at white floor.
it's 12 am now.
the room is cold as i slide into bed.
the window is still open.
i don't think i'm hungry.
