16.
I will soothe you and heal you. I will bring you roses. I too have been covered with thorns. - Rumi
I might as well get everything over all at once. I rather feel all the pain at once then let myself heal a little and then get hurt again. Besides nothing can hurt me as much as Aiden. For the first time in my life, I felt like nothing else mattered. The only thing that mattered to me right now is to find out the truth. I called Rex an hour later once I knew I've stopped my tears and calmed down to handle another rocket being launched at me. Heck, what the hell am I saying? Of course I'm not ready to handle another hearing anything else, but I knew myself. I knew if I didn't get this over and done with right now, I'm going to hide and the only thing I'll achieve is a broken heart. My heart is already broken and I know it won't break anymore than it already is so I'm going to at least get answers.
I was sitting in my car, parked near the outskirt of the city. I needed privacy to talk to Rex and I didn't know where else to go. Plus I didn't want to risk the chance of having the media find out if we were to talk in a public place with eyes and ears everywhere. And I just so happened to have driven here to cool my head after Aiden. I wasn't going to drive back to talk to Rex, so I called him to come to me. The sky has fallen and the stars were starting to appear.
I didn't know how long I was waiting for Rex to come and to be honest it didn't matter how long it took. I felt numb, cold, and emotionless. When Eric and I broke up, at least I felt hurt and pain that I couldn't even breathe from what happened. I still felt like I could live without Eric in my life and that was it, I was alive and possess human emotions. But now, I went beyond hurting, I went beyond the tear limit I didn't even know I had, and mainly I felt empty. I felt like I wasn't Rose Starr anymore, I can't bring myself to smile or tell myself that it's okay. I can't hide my own emotions from others to tell them that I am okay. My mind was blank, my eyes were heavy and probably puffy, and I really wish I could just hide forever...erasing Rose Starr off the face of the earth.
This is pathetic. I am so pathetic! I slammed my hands against my steering wheel, ignoring the throbbing pain that jolted through my hands. I rested my head against the steering wheel, staring at my laps and I want to cry my heart out but my tears dried up a long time ago and I can't even squeeze a drop out. Suddenly I heard a car coming towards me and the inside of my car lit up from the headlights of the other car. I sat up straight and even in the dark I could see that it was Rex's Maserati parked behind me. I sat in my seat for a few more moments until I saw Rex climbing out of his car, I took this as my cue to get out as well. I flung the door to my car open, slamming it shut behind me and Rex walked over towards me.
"You better have a good reason to call me out in the middle of nowhere Lily." He started.
"I'm not Lily." I muttered. "I'm Rose, Rose Starr!" I watched his expression and his expression was just like Aiden's. He wasn't surprised at my confession and he even dare to smirk.
"Yeah, I know." He casually replied and he leaned against my car with his arms folded across his chest. I wasn't surprised either, nothing can surprise me anymore but I felt anger. I have never felt so much anger or rage in my life before, I was angry at Rex for being so casual about this!
"And did you have fun?" I hissed. "Did you have fun playing with me?!"
"From the way you're acting, I assume you already talked to Kingsley?" He asked but I ignored him. He isn't allowed to ask the questions when I want the answers. "Well it looks like the game's over."
"Both of you are sick bastards." I clenched my teeth together, I wanted to punch him across the face or do something to vent out my anger!
"Hey, hey" He raised his hands up to mock a surrender before folding them back across his chest again. "Don't be so quick to judge me when I wasn't the one who decided to turn it into a game." I only thought about punching him, but I never thought I'll actually get violent and hurt someone. I found myself lounging forward towards Rex as I punched him across his face.
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Rose
RomanceRose never had the ambition or the confidence Lily had. She was always living in the shadow and was always being compared to her twin sister. But Rose was bright and cheerful and she would accept any curve balls thrown her way with open arms. Simply...