The Diary Entries

Reflect

I had never shown interest in settling down. If someone had told me I'd end up married with two children, I'd of laughed then punched them in the face for making such a statement.

I had met my ex at a house gathering, we were together for three years, broke up a couple of times in between. We started to argue a lot, neither admitting when we were in the wrong, it would end up with angry sex which is great ...if there was a connection felt in it. Majority of the times I'd find myself sleeping on the sofa for making a snarky remark, I hated how she'd pick on the outfits I chose to wear, and she hated how I didn't give a shit what she or others thought of me.

We had an argument on our way to visiting her friend who had just started dating and wanted to introduce him to us. My ex's friend and her would do an annual gathering of friends from school/college, which I hated and tried every excuse to get out of going to them.

That's when I met my husband, I noticed how shy he seemed when sat next to his girlfriend at the time. Now, I've never shown interest in a man, but that moment he had certainly piqued my interest. I followed him into the kitchen for a drink and I did enjoy watching how nervous he was around me. I found out his name from a letter stuck on the board in the kitchen, he told me how he didn't like to be known by that name for only his family would call him by that. Of course, I did exactly that, from that day onwards I called him Kakarot. He didn't argue against it, and accepted that was what I was going to call him.

I was so interested with how naive he portrayed himself as, and was eager to see him again. So of course, I agreed to go to that stupid gathering. That was the night he kissed me (he'd state otherwise, but he definitely came onto me first) and just like that, he became my addiction. He was my aphrodisiac, we've had some awkward moments in the bedroom.

We started the affair, it was risky, it was fun, and yes...we were guilty for loving every moment of it. Then we realised, just how much we really liked each other. How jealous we got over our ex's when ever they fussed over one of us. When the ex's discovered our affair, I assumed that would be the end of everything. Of course, Kakarot managed to get me to confess my real feelings for him.

There isn't anything I'd change (perhaps how I proposed to him), I'm grateful to have him in my life, as well as our sons.

Just_Goku 

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