| levi x reader | one shots

Addiction | Levi x Reader (Song fic)

lyrics has been cut short
(F/H = favourite hobby F/N = friends name)
warning! very descriptive use of drugs, please do not read this chapter if you are sensitive to this type of topic.

Tell me what to say
And lead me through the shadows
Show me the escape
Where you go I will follow

Lonliness, all you felt was lonliness. Your main comfort was your use of drugs, what else would keep you occupied? Literally nothing would entertain you anymore; your hobby F/H has become so blank to you that you just... Stopped. You cut yourself off from your friends and family especially your first childhood best friend Levi Ackerman, when was the last time he spoke to you? Thats right half a year ago. You thought he probably moved on from you and finally found the love of his life, oh boy were you wrong; for the past few months he had tried to call you and text you. But you always had your phone off or it was never charged.

Nothing felt right to you anymore, so for the past year drugs were your best friend, needle after needle. You would even swallow pills, smoke or snort it. Anything to ease and numb your pain. You cried to yourself yearning for someone to be next to you: to hold your hand and to embrace you for comfort. "Nothing matters anymore." You would say to yourself. You laid yourself on the carpeted floor and lit a cannabis filled cigarette. "Fuck." You said to yourself as you began to quietly laugh. The drugs had already taken full affect of your body. "No one loves me." You say taking another puff.

I left behind all that I used to be
So that you would stay with me
And you've become
Everything that I need
For my sanity.

Levi had tried called you at least 10 times almost everyday, "Where have you gone?" He asked, he knew your life was difficult and he knew about your addiction with drugs, he wanted to fix that by staying by your side, he had fully regretted not talking to you for half a year. He texted you wanting to know where you were or how you were feeling. And since you moved to a different house, he didn't know your new address! "I can't take this shit..." Levi cursed to himself, he decided to visit one of your friends, F/N. When he arrived at their home, he instantly asked about your whereabouts, "She said that she moved to (Address), and said nothing else after that." F/N answered, "Why? Is something wrong with her?" They asked with a worried tone.

Levi sighed, "No, I just want to make sure she's okay." He said, "Thank you anyway." Once he left, he quickly typed your address on his phone and drove their straight away.

You on the other hand, were doing your daily dosage; you gently flicked the needle that was filled with a liquified drug, "This will be fine." You sighed gently pressing the needle against your soft S/C skin.

How can something so enticing have such awful... side effects?
All the itching and the scratching
From withdrawal
Keeps me out of check

I am fixated on all the things
We were together...
But those are fragments that are better off
Lost Forever.

Levi had aggressively stomped on the brake of his car, traffic. "Goddammit!" He yelled honking his horn continously, his worry level had gone through the roof; what if you have purposely or accidently overdosed, what if he was too late and you might have already died? He didn't want to think about the what if's and stayed determined to see you. "F/N please tell me you're okay... I will help you." Levi kept on talking to himself and tapped his fingers against the steering wheel in stress. Once the traffic had started to move he quickly merged onto an empty lane and drove full speed to your house.

You sat on the couch, you were completely out of it and your heart rate had decreased from the extremely high dosage. To you it felt like nothing, "Should I take more?" You asked to yourself, however if you take more you could OD and possibly die. You grabbed another syringe, "Will this finally end the suffering I have forever felt?"

If I cut the strings the strings
That held me hostage
Would fall and shatter?
If that what it takes to breathe again
Would it even matter?

How can something so enticing have such awful side effects?
All the itching and the scratching
From withdrawal keeps me out of check

I am fixated on all of the things
We were together...
But those are fragments that are better off
Lost...

When you were about to inject yourself with the dangerous amount of drugs someone quickly opened the door, you quickly turned your head and you dropped the syringe that was in your hand, "L-Levi!? Y-You-" Your eyes filled with tears as you collapsed onto the floor having a complete mental breakdown. Levi quickly went up to you and held you in his arms, "Y/N! Calm down please, I'm here!" Levi yelped as he hugged you closely, "Why did you leave me!?" You screamed in between your salty tears. Levi kissed your forehead and petted your hair gently, "It's okay! Look at me!" He said, you made eye contact with those grey, stormy orbs. "I am so sorry that I didn't speak to you... I love you so much Y/N, please forgive me for what I have done..." Levi's voice began to sound shaky as tears had begin to run down his cold skin.

You wiped away your tears from your red puffy eyes, "I love you too Levi, promise me to never leave me again." You whimpered holding onto Levi's hand tightly, he pressed his lips against your soft ones, he broke away and smiled at you, "I promise, in fact I will live with you from now on." Your lips had formed a big smile when he said that. This feeling you have yearned for had finally become a reality.

And just
How can something so enticing have such awful side effects?
All the itching and the scratching
From withdrawal keeps me out of check.

After Levi had moved in with you, you two had become a couple and you have completely moved on from your drug addiction, there was no reason for you to keep on taking them: Levi was the one that kept you whole and free from the suffering you had experienced which felt like years.

You were so lucky to have someone like Levi.

I am fixated on all of the things
We were together
And those are fragments that are better off
Lost forever!

a/n: thank you for reading, a long chapter finally :) im sorry how dark that was.