Intersected Lines (R-18)

Line 33

(Yoon Jeonghan's PoV)

-hindi ako makapaniwalang muntikan konang ipamigay ang sarili ko ng ganon ganon nalang. What am I thinking? What has gotten into me? Am I on drugs? I deserve to die isn't it? Kanina pang hindi bumabalik si Seungcheol sa kwarto namin. Pero alam kong nasa labas lang sya base sa mga kaluskos na nadidinig ko at amoy ng yosi. He must be really stressed, this is all my fault. After hours of staring into the ceiling I finally decided to get up and fix myself on the mirror. I look pale as heck. Walang gana akong lumabas ng kwarto. There he is, leaning on the wooden railings facing the shore. Alam kong naramdaman nya ang pagsara ko ng pinto at pagupo sa may hagdanan ng room cottage namin. He dropped his cigar and stepped on it bago umupo sa tabihan ko.

"Pang ilan mona yan?"

-I said while resting my head on wooden railings.

"I wasn't counting it"

-saglit na katahimikan ang namayani saming dalawa, tanging hampas lamang ng tubig sa dalampasigan at simoy ng hangin ang bumabasag nito. The moon is spectacularly beautiful, para bang alam nyang mangyayari ang gabing ito kaya andito sya para pawiin saglit ang mga problema, it was the clear skies that makes the moon the worlds center piece. It was really gorgeous. Breathtakingly gorgeous.

"I'm sorry"

-I blurted out those words after figuring out what to do next. I think I just need this calm atmosphere para maitama ang lahat.

"What do you mean? What for?"

"For all of the troubles I brought to your life. You keep on settling the things between us and then there's me, messing it up like the bitch that I was"

"Jeonghan I-"

"Naiintindihan kona ang lahat. It was me who's at fault even from the start. Kung nagpaka matured lang sana ako at inintindi ang sitwasyon sa halip na ipilit ang gusto ko edi sana hindi na tayo dadating pa sa puntong to"

-tumingin ako sa kanya, I extended my arm at hinaplos haplos ang buhok nya.

"If it wasn't for our breakup hindi tayo magiging ganito ka successful. You'll be stuck around an immature boyfriend at hindi ka aangat sa buhay.Same as me, iikot lang ang buong mundo ko sayo at hindi na mapapansin ang lahat ng mga bagay na nasa paligid ko"

"But I never look at you that way Han, hindi ka immature. Kung may immature man sating dalawa ako yun"

"Tss...don't try to make me feel better it's not working"

"We were just so young back then"

"And it's not an excuse. We choose who we want to be Seungcheol"

-he smiled and took the hand brushing on his hair. He intertwined it with his fingers before kissing the back side of my hand. He placed our intertwined hands on his chest,  hugging it lightly. Muka syang bata na mula sa baba ay patagilid na nakatingin sakin habang yakap yakap nya ang kamay naming dalawa.

"I have never seen this side of yours"

"Because this is the side I choosed to hide in fear of losing you"

-ngumisi sya sakin at yun na ang cue ko para bawiin ang kamay ko. Ihugot ko yun mula sa pagkakayakap nya at itinulak sya ng mahina palayo. But being the bug that he is mas lalo lang syang lumapit na halos nagkakauntugan na ang mga siko namin at magkalapat na ang mga hita.

"Ganon talaga ako kapogi no?"

"Shut up. You're not attracting anymore duh"

"But you are still as beautiful as ever"