Intersected Lines (R-18)

LINE 38

(Hong Jisoo's PoV)

"Why aren't you asking me about it?"

-feeling Seungcheol's uncomfortable stare I stopped looking around the taxi window and turned my head on him instead.

"What?"

"That day. About Me and Jeonghan"

-I had to pause for a while. Gathering my thoughts while secretly judging his choice of place. Did he seriously want to talk about this?

In here?

"Should I know?"

-I asked him. Feeling a bit irritated by his sudden question.

"Should I ask if you did fuck each other?"

-I followed Seungcheols gaze after he glanced at the taxi driver. Probably embarrassed because of my blunt mouth. He's checking if the old man was looking through the rear view mirror and good thing the driver didn't seem to care. I am sure he heard me.

"Heol. Atleast you could censor 'that' word"

"I don't think I need to know Seungcheol. We are adults in here. Whether you did it or not I think it's too private for me t--"

"We didn't"

"Huh?"

-nagkatinginan kaming dalawa.

"Walang nangyari samin"

-this idiot. I stared at him with my amused face and sighed.

He's unbelievable.

"Fine. If you wanted to share"

"We d-idn't. We almost, I mean It's my fault. If it wasn't for my--"

-judging from his restless eyes and stutters I assume he's not comfortable. We're both uncomfortable talking about it and yet why are we stucked in this situation?

Why the fuck is that?

"Okay stop. I'm not one of those bastards who will judge you Seungcheol"

-I saw how his tensed shoulders slowly relaxed. Allowing himself to released that breath he's been holding for a while. I couldn't figure what's in his head.

Is he worried about how I see him after that incident? That's why he badly want to explain?

"I am your friend Cheol. Out of all the people that you should be worried of I should be your last resort. You know that"

-I purposely emphasize the word 'friend' cause I felt like he needed to be reminded. Honestly, I feel dissapointed that he didn't trust me enough and really came to the point of explaning himself.

Even thou I said he did not have to

"No Josh, it's not because I'm trying to clear my name. I'm doing it for him. I-I fell so frustrated, no one's allowing us to explain and also no one's stopping their sick minds from judging so what am I gonna do? Let it be?"

-I was taken aback. God I am so stupid. I am clearly one of those persons who don't allow him to explain. But I have good intentions for that!

"It's not fair. I badly want to tell the whole word it's not his fault. Gusto kong akuin ang lahat. Ayokong tuluyang masira ang mga pangarap nyong dalawa. I'm the only one who's responsible for this and I can't man up Josh. H-hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko"

-okay. I don't expect him to have this breakdowns in here. He looked really depressed with that tears threatening to escape his eyes and all shaky voice. I felt bad. I should have talked to him since day 1 para hindi nya to ngayon kinimkim ng ganito kalalim.