Being The Different Fan

Everybody makes mistakes

The day is finally here. It's Chris's party (also my mum's funeral).

I had gone shopping the day before for shoes and clothes. I had to alone though because for some reason kady is angry at me for blowing off my mom's funeral for the party of the year.

I don't even know what her problem is she's my mom.

I straightened my long hair and put on my thigh length dress then went to the kitchen to get a drink before starting with my makeup and sure enough kady was dressed in all black without makeup.

I'm really confused so I ask "hey kady"
She sends me a death glare. She has barely said two words to me since I told her I wasn't going to the funeral.

"Why are you dressed like that?"

"Like what? Like I'm going to a funeral? One that you should be going to too so the real question is why are you dressed like that?"she answered me in a low tone as if carefully choosing her words.

"What! Why would you go there?"

"Because I wanna pay my last respects something you don't seem to understand is necessary" she angrily shoves her purse in her handbag and zips it up.

"What's your problem exactly?" Now I was starting to get angry "why are you trying to make me feel bad? You didn't even know her well? But here you are being the good daughter when she's not even your mom she's mine" i slammed my fist on the counter and tears began to fall from my eyes as I added "at least she was"

Kady softens now as she comes to my side to comfort me and she says "Exactly"

I didn't understand what she said yet and when I was done crying she asked "are you still not going to the funeral?" She hands me a box of tissues.
I blow my nose then sniffle before answering "no"

And this time she didn't question me she just grabbed her bag and took her keys of the small coffee table by the door and left.

While I went to my room to start on my makeup.

Chris's POV,
The party hadn't started yet so right now it's just me and Dexter in the house setting up.

He's putting out some snacks while I'm adding songs to the party playlist.

"It's a real bummer that kady won't be here" Dexter says out of the blue.
"And why not?"
"Well think about it what sort of friend would she be if she didn't go to support her best friend at her mom's funeral" he slumps on the couch.
"Yeah you're right" and I slump down beside him "don't worry bro they'll be other chances in the future but for now why don't you go have a bath while I finish up here".
He sighs but does as I instructed.
While I finished putting out the beers and drinks.

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People started arriving about two hours later and now the party was on full blast.
I mingled with the crowd saying polite hey's and what's Up's where necessary.
I couldn't find Dexter anywhere he probably just ran off somewhere.
I know I shouldn't worry about someone as grown ass as Dexter but I can't help it he's Dexter.
I sat on the couch and texted Dexter again to ask where he was and I still got no reply.
I sighed in frustration and took a swig of my beer and tried to shut my eyes amidst the blaring pop music and that's when I saw her wearing a thing length red dress, smoky makeup and straight hair .
It was Carrie and the only question I could think of is what the hell is she doing here?
She waved at me and started coming over but I quickly jumped to my feet and dragged her to out so we could talk in private.
She said "hi"
"What are you doing here?" I asked
She laughed "I thought you'd be more happy to see me seeing as you invited me and all"
Does she think this is funny?
"Yeah but today is your mom's funeral"
Her smile faltered a little when I mentioned her mom's funeral but she quickly covered it up and laughed again.
"But I chose too come here and hang out with you instead" as she talked she poked me playfully but it just got on my nerves.
Can she even here herself?
"So let me get this straight instead of going to your mom's funeral you came here" and she nodded "and why the Fuck would you do that?"I practically yelled.
She didn't reply and I put my hand on my forehead "okay um, where's kady?"
She stared at her feet as she answered and it made me look like a father scolding a naughty child "at the funeral"
Her voice was almost inaudible but I heard her loud and clear and I almost exploded.
"What! You know of all the crazy fans I've ever met you really take the cake because none of them have ever been crazy enough to miss saying the last goodbyes to their loved one for absolutely nothing"
I could see she was close to tears but I wasn't done yet "you know I thought that you were smart but now it seems that you're just as shallow as the rest of chrisxfallie fans all chasing the Chris you see on Instagram"
She was crying now and I just spat in her direction a bitter "pathetic"
She ran to her apartment and slammed the door and I did the same.

Carrie's POV,
I ran to my room and fell face down on my pillow as I sobbed.
My mascara was totally ruined now and was staining my sheets but I just kept crying.
I didn't even know why I was crying cause I'm not even angry at Chris. I'm angry at myself because I know he's right.
She was my mom and I didn't even say goodbye.
I could go now but by the time I get there it would be far too late.
I already missed my last chance to say goodbye. I am so stupid.
I fished for my phone from my purse and called kady and I was so glad she picked up in between sobs I said "oh kady....kady you were r...r...right...I was...so...so...so stupid and Chris...Chris thinks so too" I just kept on crying.
"It's alright baby I'm already on my way I'll be there soon then you can tell me all about it okay?"
I nodded then I remembered she couldn't see me so I said "okay"
When she hung up I just kept crying and after what felt like years I finally heard her open the door and Run to my room.
I looked up and she was holding a tub of ice cream with two spoons. She always seems to know what I need and I just burst out crying again.
She held me and pacified me saying "it's gonna be okay"
And after recounting the events of tonight to her she sighed and handed me a spoon as we both started eating the chocolate ice cream in silence.
"Just say it you think I'm selfish and stupid too"I looked at her with sincere eyes and I could see her eyes break.
"No I don't"
We continued eating the ice cream in silence and I asked
"How was it?"
"Well your sister asked after you, but I told her you had an important exam or something"
"Oh" was all I could say and kady took my hand and said "if it makes you feel any better your sister was on her best behavior all day"
I chuckled at that and she smiled.
"Thank you kady"
"For what?"
"Everything...just every single thing"
We hugged and fell asleep after about four hours of watching sad movies on Netflix.

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A/n: I Know the chapter is really short but I hope you like it please vote and recommend to your friends.

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-jassmin