On a sleepless night, I wondered,
Was is all worth it?
Those sacrifices, those promises, so many unspoken thoughts,those ideas that never got the chance to grow,
Those dreams that never got the chance to be dreams.
I asked myself,why?for whom?
I know I keep reminding myself that is was me who made those choices,it was me who choose that path,
But deep down I know it was not me, it was never me.
So I decide on the moonless night,I decide to let go,
But before I could push my feet off the highly polished marble floor and start to fly,
Those unwavering,inescapable hands of the society have already buried its clutches deep inside me pulling me back into the same old turmoil,same old drama,same old self pity.
And in that shivering moment, realized that there was no escape, my ship was sinking into the depths of the seas and no matter how hard I try to fly my way out I was still going to hit rock bottom
Just maybe not today,
But someday.
Because I am a prisoner,
Not a prisoner held captive my iron chains,but a prisoner with an invisible leash around my neck confining where I go.
Not a prisoner under restraining order, but a prisoner under moral ethics and self righteousness .
Not a prisoner becuse I did something wrong but a prisoner because I might do something wrong,
Not a prisoner who is locked away from everyone, but a prisoner who is closed off from everything the world had to offer.
A prisoner.
