IOTA ⋆「multi-fandom oneshots #2」

11. heat of the momemt ; kagehina

He didn't mean for it to happen when it did, the way it did, but… it happened. And now it's too late to take it back. He knows he shouldn't have done it- god, why did he? What the hell was he thinking?

Clearly, Hinata must not have been thinking at all. Not when he - full of excitement and passion, with adrenaline coursing through him - grabbed a fistful of Kageyama's shirt and yanked him down to press their lips together. In front of the whole court.

That includes their friends and teammates, their opponents, everyone who was watching the game, and even the cameras recording the now finished match between them and Shiratorizawa. The match they'd just won, even though it'd seemed impossible.

Now Hinata just sits alone in his room, thinking about it with an arm slung over his face to block out the light that keeps giving him a headache. He doesn't really know why he did it, why he acted so stupidly in front of everyone, but what he does know is that he hasn't seen or talked to Kageyama since.

He actually hasn't really talked much with anyone from the team since then besides Sugawara and Nishinoya. Nishinoya, who tracked him down in the bathroom and told him that what he did was actually insane before the boy asked if that meant Hinata was Kageyama's boyfriend now.

Hinata had blushed furiously and insisted that no, that's not what the kiss meant at all before he told his friend that he didn't even mean to do it. Before Nishinoya could press the matter further, Sugawara had stepped in to make him shut up and leave Hinata alone.

Sugawara had lingered in the bathroom for longer than he needed to be in there, and once everyone else was gone he'd turned to Hinata and asked, "So why did you do it, anyway?"

Hinata stared at himself in the bathroom mirror, his face turning a bright red color. "Heat of the moment?" he offered weakly as he washed his hands. When his eyes met Sugawara's in the mirror and he saw the skeptical look he was being given, Hinata had sighed and turned around. "Look, I don't know why I did it, but I did and I now know that I shouldn't have. Something just… came over me, I guess, and I couldn't stop myself."

Sugawara didn't speak for a bit, just stared at Hinata like he was thinking about something. Then, he'd finally opened his mouth and Hinata hadn't been expecting what came out; the words felt like a volleyball to the face.

"Do you have feelings for Kageyama?"

And now, as Hinata continues to lie on his bed and stare up at the ceiling, he thinks back to the question. At the time, his answer was a quick, "No, of course not! Are you crazy?", but now, a whole week of being alone and thinking later, he doesn't know. He honestly doesn't know.

Does he like Kageyama? Hinata had never thought much about it before he kissed the dark haired boy, but he guesses that he must like him, even if it's a little, if he was so willing to, for a lack of better words, throw himself at Kageyama that easily when he was excited.

And he guesses, with a huff, that Kageyama is a little attractive. He's tall, for one, and his eyes are a pretty shade of blue. But does Hinata want to date him? Does he want to go out with Kageyama and hold his hand, does he want to kiss him like that again?

His mind and his mouth both say "no", but deep inside, his heart disagrees with him, betraying him.

Maybe Hinata does like Kageyama. Maybe he does want to go on dates with him, maybe he does want to hold his hand and kiss his lips and refer to him as his boyfriend. Is that a problem? Absolutely! Why?

Well... Hinata doesn't quite know, exactly. He just knows that it's a big problem.

Kageyama is another guy, to start off with, and while Hinata doesn't have a problem with boys liking other boys, he knows not everyone feels the same.