I feel the pit in my stomach, I feel the tightness in my chest. My heart starts racing and soon it's hard to catch my breath. My thoughts start to race, I get this sour taste in my mouth. I feel a pen and needle sensation all throughout. The room starts spinning, my vision gets blurry. Why do I keep overwhelming my self with these constant thoughts of worry? I know damn well I have no control over the situation, just how I react. But that doesn't stop the full-fledged anxiety attack. I try to breathe deeply, I try grounding with the five senses. I've even tried meditating to release all of my tension. Maybe it's just me, but I swear it never works. It seems like everything I do to relieve my anxiety always just makes it worse. I guess I'll forever be a prisoner to my anxiety, always having to do as it asks. And I guess being cool and collected in any high pressure situation is just out of my grasp.
