LATE NIGHTS IN TOKYO (UNPOLISHED VERSION)

Goofy

Yeah my goofy side warms everyone's heart up and puts a smile on their face...
Making me get closer with them every time I display my goofiness
Making everything around me lit up
Making everyone realize how different I am
People say I'm the funniest mf they know
I mean yeah it's good and all but
I don't wanna say it's a cover up
Or a front
It could seem like that but maybe I should consider it as also "changing me to be more open and friendly.." yet "escaping my mind"
It's hard to deal with my mind...
My thoughts
It be killing me
Doing dumb shit to get people's attention...
Because I'm lonely and all...
It could be just enough to make everyone else around me happy
That's all what's it about...
And numbing the pain for a second...
Shit I couldn't be the only one thinking this
Or realizing it...
Realizing it's natural thing that people go through
But...
People don't know me
I be goofy so much it could just ruin my chances for something or maybe someone
Not displaying who I really am
Regardless if someone does want to get with me or thinking about it they can get to know me and realize I'm not all goofy
I think that with my friends...
I feel like I'm too extra sometimes....
I locked it...
I can't unlock it
No actually
I'm lying I can...
It'll be alright I promise

Being goofy to simple hold up a friendship
Trying to be the center of attention because you know for a fact you were in the outside by yourself alone
With no one
I didn't have anyone...
Not a single person...
Talking to whoever in my family that feels the need to talk and to catch up
Just me and my father...

Trying to be the center of attention
The funny mf that everyone knows and loves
But they don't know how alone I was
It's like having a fuckin mask
Pretending...
They don't know what's behind the mask