Flamingeos :Closed Up

I Will Always Love

Chapter 51:

Today wasn't a beautiful day. It had started raining before i woke up.
I don't know if I'm the only who does this but when i wake up the first thing i do is grab my phone go on my social medias and scroll through see what's new maybe have a little laugh and then i leave my bed.
That's exactly what i did i got a text from mom saying morning and that she misses me and dad to misses me so i texted back saying i miss them too.

I went to the bathroom and took a shower i did my daily routine and dressed up. I wore a black plain t shirt and black sweatpants and ankle socks which were grey i wasn't feeling it today. And tied my hair in a bun. But on some eyeliner and mascara and lip gloss i was literally having a lazy vibe and fact i didn't want to go anywhere else. 

It was 10 am, I switched on my laptop and just stayed in the room and watched money Heist season 3 on my Netflix account. Few mins later someone started knocking on my door. I really didn't want to answer as I had an idea who it was.

"Jade please can i come in? "
I mean it's his house i don't know why he needs permission from me to enter plus i locked the door from last night.

"Jade please" i heard the door nob turn but didn't open. Because technically last night i locked it cause i didn't want him coming in.

"Jade hunny please open the door you need to eat breakfast you have been awfully quiet" This time it was a female voice. It was Geo's mom talking so i decided to open she has those small tools you are able to carry to your room there was bacon and eggs and bread with juice & an apple. I smiled at her and grabbed it from her carried it to the bed Geo just walked in i couldn't push him out cause his mom was there she smiled and close the door in front of her. Geo was wearing grey sweats and a black  t shirt and black soaks with slides.

I sat and started putting bacon and egg on my slice of bread. Geo was trying to talk to me.

"Babe please talk to me, I'm sorry i know you mad, i was just very very angry but i wasn't gonna hit you that's why i just looked at you after i pushed you to the wall i really feel terrible"

I still didn't respond, i took a bite of my break fast and sipped my juice.

"Jade please?.... Chloe?"

"Do not call me that"

"if it's gonna make you talk to me, i will"

"What do you want Juwany?"

"I want you to forgive my stupid dumb ass"
I chuckled a little.

"Yeah you are dumb"

"Hey i made you laugh"

"Just go away Geo, i don't want to be bothered, i really really wonna go home, honestly"

"Why? No please"

"You are treating me like I'm not welcomed here"

"No, no that's not true"

He took part my food out from my hands placed it on the plate and grabbed my hands and pulled my chin towards his face he looked into my eyes with his sparkling brown eyes and kissed my hands and caressed them. And said

"I'm very sorry if you felt that way, i love you very much"  i almost fell for it but i pulled my hands away i sorta had mixed feelings my heart said gosh i love him so much and my brain said he keeps hurting me. I couldn't help but cry  because so many things were going on through my mind that caused blood rush that caused panic attack that caused me to break down and cry.

"please don't cry?" Geo wiped my tears.

"I just need you to leave Geo, i need to think"

"then we are gonna think about it together" he grabbed my hands again but i pulled away and pushed him off of the bed. Which caused him to fall.

"Ple- please you need to get out I'm just not feeling it to talk to you"  Geo got up and came on the bed again

"I know i am constantly told to leave you but i won't"

I decided to go into the bathroom before i could close and lock it Geo ran after me and blocked the door from closing it. As i tried pushing it i couldn't Geo was too strong i was running out of ideas and i ended up sitting on the floor against the wall folded my legs as i cried. Geo carried me. One hand placed on my bag and the other placed on my legs i was tired of fighting i just put my head on his shoulder as he carried me back into the room and gently put me down on the bed. I looked the other way rested my head on top of my hands that were placed on the pillow with my legs folded together. Geo walked the other side of the bed i was facing and laid next to me, he pulled my body close to his and wrapped one arm around me and the other he wiped my tears and started brushing my hair back with his hand gently.

"we don't have to talk, push me, slap me, beat me & I will still love you & i will stay right here until you feel better" he kissed my forehead and pulled me to his chest and cuddled me. All i did was close my eyes and suddenly i did not feel so many mixed emotions i felt safe & loved. Geo gets angry but the next day he always comes thru and tries to make things right even if it's my fault i don't understand why i deserve him he never gives up on us even when i do.