Love Song For the Devil (BoyXboy ) 2nd Series

16. BTS (V & RM): 4 o'clock

I holed up in my room for the whole day. It was so clear even before the day I met him. I wasn't over him, I'll never be over him. Jenna informed me that Damien left a letter for me before he went to his house. I did not want to hear his explanation and truth be told he did not owe me one. We were never together to begin with and right now I had no one to be with.

I could not be with Tristan when I had this overwhelming love for the son of a bitch who was getting married this week. In fact I did not want to be with anyone right now.

Jenna came in with a bowl full of chicken soup.

" You'll get sick if you don't eat. Your dad is pretty worried about you." she said as she sat beside me.

I got up from my bed and looked out of the window. It was snowing but not too heavily.

" You were right, Jenna. I cant do it." I muttered. " I can't love anyone else other than that shit."

She remained silent and just grabbed my hand.

" I don't know, Ethan what's going on in your head but the reason you can't move on is you are not being truthful to yourself." she said.

I looked at her. She looked tired and pale.

" You don't want him out of your system." she said, " And if your truly want to move on then be truthful to yourself and then to him."

I sighed and rubbed my eyes.

" Damien said he loved me." I murmured, " If he loved me then why would he marry someone else."

" Because you two don't see eye to eye at anything." she explained, " Ethan, when was the last time you talked as mature adults rather than avoiding the topic?"

My shoulders dropped hearing that. Of course we did not talk about our true feelings. It was either me saying I was with someone else or him just laughing it off. But what could I do? I was with someone else. I was dating Tristan who did not take the break up well.

" We just live in different worlds, Jenna." I said. " Even if I tell him how I feel it won't work out."

" Well, does it matter?" she asked. I looked at her.

" Huh?"

" Well, will it matter? If he rejects you then and there then you have your closure. A full closure. Trust me you will feel better." she said and caught my shoulder and rubbed it.

" I hope so." I said and laid down on the bed again," I need time."

" Take all the time you need. Well, not much cause he's gonna marry next monday." she said, " From what I hear from the news."

" He said he broke up with her."

I heard rustling of clothes and Jenna handed me the letter.

" Just give a quick read." she said and I took it. "And finish the soup. Cece is trying out her new bike so I have to supervise her. Your dad went for work."

I nodded and after taking in the delicious soup, I went to sleep.

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" What are you doing here?" I asked the next day when I saw Matthew Sanders standing in front of my door.

" I heard you got sick." he said and came in, " My mom sent you this."

" What's this?" I asked looking at a brown package in his hand.

" Some medicinal herb she grows in the backyard. She is very keen on you taking it." he said and shoved it in my arms.