SALLY
I wanted to sink down under the ground. I wanted to disappear totally. I felt so awkward. This was all so weird. I failed totally. I really did. He had to hate me now. He probably expected more. How could I be this bad to such a simple thing? Well, I had never ever done it before. I mean.. No guy ever had wanted to come close to me, at all. Left alone kiss me. Not that that bothered me.. but right now I would like to have some experience. What if he noticed that I hadn’t done it before? What if he thought I was the most stupid girl in the entire world?
Just as I dared to take my eyes off the ground and look at him again his phone rang. He pulled away from me to reach the phone. He shouted to the phone, but then he suddenly changed face expression. “Yeah, I’m straight around the corner.. Just needed some air..” he said. He kissed my cheek and left me alone in the big garden. I heard the car-door close and turned to see if he waved to me or anything like that. He didn’t. What the fucking hell did just happen? I was sure it was one of the guys who called him. He wouldn’t say he was just around the corner if it wasn’t. Why didn’t he tell them he was here? Didn’t he want them to know? Did they already know? Was he embarrassed that he did what he did? I was so damn confused. I could’ve drowned in my own confusedness.
I stood there with his jacket still wrapped around me. My face was still shocked, but my eyes were dry again. I couldn’t stand why I became so weak near him.. and now that he kissed me.. Why did I even care that I failed? I never cared if I failed in anything at all. Maybe he actually meant something to me? Well, how? .. “Sally? You okay?” Milly went up to me and hugged me, trying to make me stop shiver. I nodded slowly and hugged back. It was the first time I had hugged Milly for real. Something was totally wrong in my head. Something or someone spun all my thoughts around. “Frank told me something was going on with you and one of those guys on the drawing..” she said and I pulled away. “Oh, he didn’t..” I started, ready to fight. “Chill, we can take him some other time.. Now you have something to explain!” she laughed. “You wish!” I said and started walking back in.
As I went against the stairs I saw Frank talking with the two new girls. I saw how he looked at them and smiled to myself. They had to be his new dream girls, at least one of them. Milly came close behind me and almost pulled me upstairs. I was on my way to my bed when she pulled me in another door and threw me on the little couch in the little cupboard. He threw my diary and my sketchbook to my lap and looked at me. “Now, show.. or tell!” she said. It was obvious that she hadn’t looked in any of them. I knew that she wouldn’t have done that anyway. She was too nice to do such a stupid thing. Slowly I opened my sketchbook, but then I closet it again. “Find it out yourself” I said and handed Milly my irreplaceable sketchbook. Her eyes became wide open when she slowly reached out her hand to take it. She started going through it all, and she could see my life in pictures.
“Hey, cutie. I’m sorry for leaving you like I did. Would you let me make it better with a date? xx” I read the text over and over again. Some of my questions were answered, and new appeared in my head. “What are you doing with your phone? You’re fucking up for the perfect light on your drawings!” Milly joked and looked at me. She tried to look at my phone’s screen, but I hided it. “Oh, c’mon!” she begged. She showed me her puppy eyes and again I gave in. “Wow, you have a date!” she said excited. “I don’t!” I said and got an asking face back, before she understood that I hadn’t replied to his text.
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ZACK
Eyes were pointed at me. I ran my fingers through my hair and tried to stare back, but I was so uncomfortable that it scared me. I looked to the window to see if it was something wrong with me. The mirroring in the window only showed me the normal me, a little more red in the face than usual, but otherwise identically. “Where have you been?” Jack asked. “I took a walk” I replied fast. All eyes were still pointed at me. “With the car?” he asked. “I needed to fill oil” I replied fast again. Shit. This could only go one way, down. “Why did you need to fill oil on the car when you were going for a walk?” He asked and stood up. “He was supposed to fill oil, and then he went for a walk where he filled oil, duh!” Rian joined in and looked at me. Jack looked at me and went out the room. “Thanks” I said quiet and smiled to Rian. “I have no idea what you’re doing, but don’t let it ruin for the four of us” he whispered and patted my back.
Was this ruining for us, that I liked Sally? Yes I liked Sally, and I did since the first time we spoke, but I didn’t want to ruin anything. Was it because I didn’t tell Jack? But it wasn’t my fault then. It was Jack that acted like that from the beginning. It was Jack that started asking where I had been. No one usually cared about where I was. No one used to care about where any of us where. We had our own lives too. Actually. Maybe I should’ve only said hi.. I probably shouldn’t have kissed her.. But I did, and I didn’t regret at all.
My phone vibrated and a smile appeared on my face. “You should really make an amazing date to make up for how you left me! When? xx” I was happy she actually wanted to have a date with me. Maybe I did the right thing anyway? “I’ll pick you up some time, be ready xx”
