SALLY
His muscular body covered mine and I could feel his warmth. Slowly I got out of his arms and put on my hoodie and some tights. I went to my jacket and got out the little box in the pocket. I hadn’t slept all night, and the box had been annoying me the whole time. It was like it had been screaming at me, to get me out of bed and take a smoke. Sometimes it helped to smoke to make me tired too, so I couldn’t understand why I didn’t do it for hours ago. Slowly I got out of the room and walked down the stairs.
I felt the happiness stream down in me when I fired my smoke and started smoke it. In the moment I couldn’t think about anything else than the happy feeling that got into me. Everything was kind of easy when I breathed in this stupid thing. I could think positive about the whole Zack mystery, and nothing negative was in my head, at all. I breathed in the last breath of my smoke and threw it on the ground before I stamped on it.
My mind was so relaxed and I opened the door slowly in a hope that I could go upstairs and fall asleep immediately, but my hope wasn’t becoming true. Just when I closed the door, the skinny dude stood in front of me. “Can’t sleep either?” he asked and locked my eyes. I shook my head and tried to get away from him. “Hey, let me talk” he said and grabbed my arms, holding me in front of him. I didn’t want him to talk. I had just got everything out of me with my smoke, but know he ruined it all. “Sally, I’m sorry.. I.. I..” he stuttered. “You what?” I said and got out of his grip. I stared at him, ready to leave just as I did before we all went to bed. “I’m sorry for reading your diary. I couldn’t help it.. I couldn’t continue with not knowing about ‘them’.. I felt that I needed to know what was wrong with one of my closest friends.. Yes, I know that was the wrong way to find it out, and I’m sorry.. but I really couldn’t help it,” he spitted out in a horrible speed. “I want my best friend back, and I want her back just like she was before when I didn’t know anything about her. I know it’s a lot to ask for, but you know I’m an idiot, and I fuck things up.. but now I just want to fix it all” he said and opened his arms and invited to a hug. I stepped closer and felt his arms wrap around me. I didn’t know what I was doing. I didn’t actually want to forgive him, but I knew what would happen if I didn’t. He hugged me tightly and I felt him kissing the top of my head. “You smell of smoke” he whispered but didn’t let go of me. I felt how a bit of anger built up in me, but slowly I made it disappear. I needed to keep quiet now. I couldn’t start a new fight. I didn’t want to start a new fight. I needed to keep calm, and try to think positive again. ‘Them’ were out of my life forever, and now I had a new life, with friends and a family.
I went under my duvet and cuddled up to Zack’s chest. I hoped he still slept peacefully and didn’t mind that I come back to him. I couldn’t know though. “I’m proud of you” he whispered. He wasn’t asleep, and he knew what just happened. I smiled weakly even I knew he didn’t see it. His eyes were closed but I actually think he noticed my smile anyway. “Goodnight” I said and closed my eyes and leaned my head closer to his chest. He moved his fingers on my neck and moved my head a little up from his chest. I thought maybe it was uncomfortable to lie like that, but suddenly I felt his lips touching mine. He moved his lips slowly and gently, but still passionately on my lips. Carefully I replied the kiss before we both pulled back and cuddled into each other again. “Goodnight” he whispered before I disappeared in my deep sleep.
I waked up to some high voices that sounded like they were in the room I was in. Fuck, they were too. The two men were staring at me and I noticed why. I was lying in a double bed cuddled up to Zack, under one duvet. “Ooouuh” Rian said and whistled. “Get the fuck out of here!” Zack shout at the two of them. “Relax Zacky, we’re not going to threw away the duvet or something!” Alex teased. I got out of Zack’s arms and stood up. All of the guys were staring at me now, where I was standing only in tights and bra. “The door is over there guys” I said and pointed at the door. The guys moved slowly but were still staring. “Oh c’mon! Don’t pretend like you haven’t seen a half-fat girl in bra before!” I said and almost pulled them out. I closed the door and got back to the bed. “Sally?” Zack asked after a while. “Mhm?” I said and closed my eyes again. “You’re not fat” he said seriously. I opened my eyes and looked at him before I looked away without a word. “No, Sally. Seriously. No, you’re not!” he said and sat up in the bed. “Zack..” I started but he cut me off. “Sally, no.. Just believe me. You’re amazing just the way you are” he said. “Therefor you had to quote Bruno Mars?” I joked and sat up too. “I mean it Sally,” he said. He was so serious that he almost scared me but I still didn’t change my meaning. “Do I have to prove it?” he asked still as serious as he was the whole time. I didn’t reply to that either. I just lied back down in the bed and pulled the duvet over my head. It didn’t go too long before he pulled it down again and crashed his lips on mine. He moved faster and faster, and he kissed me more and more passionately. As I started to reply he started play around with my tongue and his fingers ran up and down my side. I started to play with the hair in his neck as he was standing over me now. He went down to my neck and sucked at it for some seconds before he went up to my lips again. My thoughts were spinning. I was so confused. In the start he looked like the really shy person, and all the interviews and pages on the internet told the same, but now, with me, he was totally different. He was confident and did things I couldn’t imagine a shy dude to do so fast. Was he only playing with me, or with all the fans? Was he just being shy in public to hide how he actually was?
“Hey, lovebirds!” Rian smiled at us when we got down hand in hand. The smile I got from Alex was bigger than any smile I’d ever seen. “What’s wrong with you?” I asked but only got a grin back. Well, that was pretty weird.. Everyone seemed to be in good mood. “Breakfast?” Rian smiled. “Yes please,” I said and nodded with a grin. Just when I sat down to eat the amazing breakfast Rian made me, my phone made a noise and vibrated in my pocket.
“Get home now, bitch. NOW! - Milly”
