SALLY
I plugged in my earphones and pressed play. I sat under my duvet with my phone and searched for the name Jack had typed in on my phone. It was obviously a band and as the first that came up on google was a picture of Rian and Jack plus two other dudes, I decided to believe that they were the band. It was a lot of videos on a lot of different channels on youtube. I clicked on some of the oldest of them and was staring at Jack and another dude in a bed with a glass of wine in their hand. Were they gays? No, they couldn't be.. Rian told me Jack like boobs, didn't he? Maybe he was BI, or just a gay that liked boobs.. I scrolled down some comments and saw a lot of people saying things like: "Jalex for life! xx". Was that their names mixed together? Oh, god. What a weird fan base.
I jumped over to the next video. That was one of the newest videos, from warped tour. Oh, help my life. Pink hair, seriously? What kind of band was this? I liked their punk style, but what kind of music was it? I kept watching interviews and tried to get to know these guys. When I clicked in to an interview with Jack and Rian, I couldn't hold back my laugh. Rian was going to answer questions like he was Jack, and Jack like he was Rian. I couldn't stand how adorable they were.
The next video was some kind of a trailer to an album or something. It was pretty new, and I clicked play. It wasn't going to take too long before I regretted the click. Jack dancing naked in front of the camera was pretty disturbing, and his face in the start of it.. It was impossible to forget.
As I thought I was through the most important things I started search for some of their music. One of the songs I got up was called “Time-Bomb”. I pressed play and listened carefully. The guys were pretty hot too. Yes, even I was cold and seemed like I didn’t care on the outside, I was still a girl on the inside. The front guy had to be the dude that had pink hair. He was adorable with a little more normal hair colour, and he actually reminded me of Jack. They could’ve been brothers, but instead they were taken for being gays, Jalex. Wow. Still I thought this fan base was pretty weird.
I put on shuffle to listen to more of the songs. I really wanted to discover this people. I didn’t want to just not care like I used to. Some of their lyrics really meant something and I was singing it over and over again in my head. “Wow, what a band!” I said to myself under the duvet. They made me go crazy about some lyrics, and sing them after only listened to them once. That wasn’t like me. No band in the world had ever made me feel like this.
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The next days was going away to listen to this band all the time. I had one earplug plugged in my ear all day, and one out in case Milly or Frank wanted to get my attention. My sketchbook was filled up with new stuff, and I didn’t put it away for more than a minute at same time. “What happened with you?” Milly asked me as the two of them sat down with the table. “Yeah, after we went to the town you’ve been drawing all the time!” Frank added. I looked up from my drawing for a second before falling straight back to it. “What’ve inspired you so much?” Milly asked. I started colour some places of my drawing and looked at it. “I draw when I feel like it!” I answered after looking at my drawing for a while. I was back to my totally impolite and cold me. “Well.. don’t you have any time at all for your friends?” Frank asked in a funny tone and poked me, like 345678 times. “Not now!” I almost shouted and tried to get away from his pokes. I noticed Frank take a step back and turn is face to an uncomfortable, weird, half-sad face. “Maybe later” I said, and put on a smile to make them feel better. They actually tried to be nice to me. Why did I pull away the only people that ever wanted to be near me? I was obviously too used to being used. Being left out and getting comments on everything. The few people that talked to me before, only wanted to mock my stuff. Mock my body and look, and mock my drawings. I needed to get used to the fact that some people actually tried to get to know me, just as I tried to get to know this band. I probably did it the wrong way, but I didn’t know any other way.
