Believe

Chapter 1: Contact

Nare's heart was broken, crushed as she had not felt for a long time. She reminded herself how strong she was, and that this would not bring her down. She wanted to run away, cry, scream, rip out her heart once and for all.
<Maybe it wouldn't hurt that much> she thought.
Sancar had destroyed the tiny confidence that she still had in him, and she felt so stupid, so deluded to believe him once again. She, who did not believe her,she had believed in Sancar. Even with Menekse by his side, part of Nare believed in a future with him, and she felt so ashamed, so unworthy of just fantasizing about it.
<What was I thinking? Silly, silly Nare>
Her eyes were puffy, she saw herself that night on the precipice, on her wedding night, scared and alone. How had she given the man who had left her in that state a chance? Maybe her heart was too big. Maybe it was time to think about her, just like Gediz once told her.
Gediz. Thinking that he was the first to believe her comforted her a little. He would knows what to say to make her smile. Maybe a sarcastic joke, or something related to the girl from the legend, and unfinished promises. She knew him well.
Although they will only have known each other for months, it seemed like they had been together for a lifetime. Nare allowed herself to smile, remembering the day she met him. She still remembered their conversation on the plane, reminding the girl in the legend that she would rather forget, his tone of voice, low, but reassuring too.
She had not spoken to him, he did not know what happened.
Nare knew what to do.

She got up from the threshold of the door, and she ran tears with the sleeves of her clothes, Melek and Elvan could not see her like that.

She entered the room and Elvan was still in it.

-And Melek? - Nare asked.

-Ahh, my lamb!She went to sleep as soon as she saw that her dad was leaving.

Elvan observed her puffy eyes and immediately stopped towards her. She take Nare's face and dry her cheeks.Nare took her hands and pretended to be better.

-Elvan, I'll go out for a moment, I'll go see Gediz. Please take care of Melek for a moment.-Nare took the car keys and a coat, and crossed the threshold of the door.Elvan followed her concerned.

-But darling, look at what time it is. And look how you are! -Answered Elvan worried.

Nare sighed. -That's why I need to see him.

Nare knocked on the door of the mansion several times, but nobody came out. Gediz had not answered her last message <I don't blame him, I wouldn't answer either>
In the end, she decided to send Müge. She left immediately.
-Nare, what's going on? - a surprised Müge attended her.

-I know it's late, sorry. But I need to see Gediz. Could I see him, please?

Müge made her pass immediately.

-I haven't seen him since afternoon,I guess he must be in his room, not even down to eat.But come in and see.

-Thank you.

Nare knocked on the door once, but no one answered. She covered her eyes and opened the door little by little.

- I'm not looking, I'm not looking!

There was no one. The room was empty. On the bed were some folded shirts, some shoes on the floor, but his white slippers were not there, after that, everything was ordered as always.On the small table before the bed were a few things, a pair of perfectly aligned notebooks and folders. But there was one that caught her attention, a notebook on all those folders, with some pages sticking out.
Nare took it carefully, and opened it. Curiosity could and started seeing some small bills and errands.
Loose leaves fell to the floor.
Nare took them, a rough draft of something.Her eyes froze when she saw her name written.
Nare read it again, It was a draft of a letter, it was not finished yet, but she could not remain in doubt.
She sat down and read it slowly. The letter had been written that same day.