Author's note:
Read the full chapter. For the good parts ;-)
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My first kiss is stolen. I never wanted it to go like this. Heck, I never wanted anything to go like this. Why would he do it? Why would anyone do this to me? I felt my very own dignity being snatched.
I am pissed. I have been mugged. Moreover, the jackass bit me. Why bite me? Is this is a love bite? Did he want to leave a mark? A mark which would always make me remind of him. Something I couldn't erase.
I am so mad, so fucking mad!
Right now, I felt sort of numb. I skipped school today using period cramp as an excuse and of course, my mom bought it. I just lied down on the bed. My stupid..stupid brain kept on my flashing images of the episode I had yesterday.
His eyes, his touch and the kiss.
To be honest, I have never been touched this way. I have never felt this way. A shiver ran down my spine. The doorbell rang and it made me jump. It's probably the milkman.
I opened the door.
"Can we talk?" The jackass said making an innocent face. Man, I wish I'd never fallen for that face. I closed the door but he stopped it. I didn't make any further efforts. I stepped away and let him come in. My jaw automatically tightened. I could feel my temper rising.
"Look...." He began talking shit.
"No you look and shut the fuck up while I speak! If you say that you're sorry then I say shove it up your ass" I shouted. Man, this isn't another dog fight. He just can't be sorry.
"Hey calm down..."
"You expect me to calm down? How can you expected to friggin calm down? How dare you touch me? I am going to kill you. I swear..." I said lunging at him with a badminton. I hit him but he dodged.
"Let's just sit and talk. Okay?" He said running around. I grabbed his shirt and pushed him back. I looked into his eyes.
"Yeah girl, you can do this too? I'm impressed" He laughed giving me this extremely seductive look. I punched him straight on his face and dug my elbow in his gut. I stepped on his foot and smacked him in the throat. Unfortunately, he blocked it this time.
I was pushed back. I lunged at him again but he got hold of a handful of my hair and grabbed my jaw. He drove one of my hands over and I could feel his foot on mine.
"Oww.." I squealed whimpering and struggling.
"Let's just sit and talk. You know, you don't want to piss me off" he said panting. I nodded still panting hard. The blows I had given him were heavy really.
I sat straight on the sofa. All ears. All ready to listen to his theory.
"I did this because I thought it was worth doing with you" He said suddenly looking up. I looked at him confused.
"Aleena, I am not really the shy, slow-going and being cute kind of guy. I don't know how to really express myself before people but with you, I just feel that I am this..this person that I've always wanted to be. You made me feel wanted. You made me feel important. You made me feel loved....."
I felt like I would melt under his stare. I couldn't dare lift my head up. He moved closer to me.
"I don't know what came to me that day. I had this really really bad feeling to have a taste of you..." He said. I didn't know how much more of this I could listen.
"I apologize for my ways for I don't know how to do this" He said. He moved closer. He leaned forward. "I just know that I'd want you. Always" He whispered in my ear. He started lending small kisses on my neck. I felt him pushing me back on the sofa.
What the hell is he trying to do?"
I pushed him back wildly.
"Have you ever given a thought about what I want? You just can't force me into this. You had problems fitting in. I helped you through this, I would do this for anyone..." I said. I have always been a bad liar. I so hoped he did not know my lying face.
"Stop lying, Aleena" He said. For a moment. I froze. "I know it's because you're afraid. You think they become a reason to weaken you, you know they will always have an upper hand on you. You think you're heart will be broken and you're afraid to put your everything for nothing. You're too afraid to love..." He said looking me in the eye.
"Just get out of my house. Please" I said and ran upstairs holding off the tears in the corner of my eyes.
