"You're too afraid to love..." Shaurya's words kept on echoing in my ears. I hated how he knew he had touched a nerve. Yes, I mean he was pretty much right about everything but it was kind of hard to hear you know.
I basically don't open up to many people because I don't let people in too soon because they let me down and I just can't sit around with my sorry ass. So yeah, the douchebag was right.
Honestly, I was pretty surprised. How did he know me so much? I mean it's just been 2 months and we recently just started spending time together. Maybe half a month or more.
I really liked Shaurya but you know this whole relationship thing is just not my thing. I just can't handle it. Also, I don't know him so well. Oh and he touched me where he wasn't supposed to, not without my consent.
I mean what does he think? He does whatever he wants? Oh man, I could really use some advice right now. I can't tell this to Reva. I know she'd make a mess out of it. He breaking into my house and doing stuff to me. I felt like I would go crazy.
Man, my neck hurt. I couldn't even tilt my head. All thanks to him...
I just I don't know what to do. I didn't want to do this with him but I didn't want him to walk away too. I dug my face into the the pillow and shut my eyes close, trying to think of a way.
Next day at school, things felt a hell lot of different. I couldn't look at my friends in the eye. I didn't want to look at anyone especially not Shaurya. He started talking to my friends which is actually not normal, he never really talked to them. Also, I don't know what made Sonali act weird. She was being rude to me but I really didn't pay much attention. I couldn't concentrate. I could neither study nor play.
"I put on a story yesterday remember? that it was a bomb ass video" Reva said. I nodded my head. I didn't see her a story though.
"He replied," I don't know about the video but you surely have a bomb ass... winky face winky face"
I laughed. I laughed so hard.
For a while, days passed like this. Shaurya and I would rarely talk except a few handshakes and eye contacts. He continued to drop chocolates and letters in my bag, his letters saying that he was sorry, he can't undo what he did but he can make it up for me. He continued to text me but I would not reply him back. I wanted to but I just can't.
Sonali's behaviour with me worsened and we even had a fight over something. I don't know what had come into her. She started posting photos of her in a crop top and skirt, each time her top would get shorter and so did her skirt exposing a lot of skin. I mean no, no I AM NOT A SEXIST. I wasn't used to this. Whatever man....
One extremely crappy day, I was just returning back home. I wanted to take the shortcut to avoid traffic. However, the roads were empty and my mom said I should take the main roads but, whatever. I went on singing a song in my head, I passed the corner where we had kissed. I got goosebumps. I didn't go much further ahead when I stopped in my tracks horrified.
I felt like my eyes would pop out, my heart broke into a million pieces like a shattered glass vase drop on a floor. I saw Sonali and Shaurya kissing each other. Very passionately. Sonali's arms were wrapped around his waist. Shaurya noticed me and pulled away.
"It's not what you think...." He said with his hands up. "Oh, we were a little occupied darling. Mind leaving us alone?" She said very bitchily. That was absolutely not how I thought she would react. I walked forward and looked at Shaurya. I punched him straight on his nose and smiled. I turned around and rode off on my cycle.
Honestly I feel good now....
