It was past four in the evening, and I was feeling absolutely miserable. My heart felt like it was being ripped apart and I couldn't seem to shake the feeling of sadness. Despite my best efforts, I just couldn't seem to get over Ameer. My thoughts were scattered and I couldn't even think straight. It was natural to feel this way, but it didn't make it any easier to bear.
Najma had left after warning me not to think too much, but what did she expect? It wasn't like I could just turn off my feelings on command. I still couldn't believe what had happened.
"Leenah, you look a little disturbed. Are you okay?" My sister Meelah asked, noticing the turmoil on my face.
"Yes, don't worry about me. When are you leaving for school?" I asked, trying to change the subject.
"On the 24th of this month. I don't want to go because I'll miss you all," she replied, her voice cracking with emotion and tears welling up in her eyes.
"Oh wow. Come on, we can visit you during visiting hours and you can call us once in a while. At least the school allows that," I reassured her, trying to make her feel a bit better.
"Yes, that's right. You shouldn't worry too much. I know you're not okay. I'm going to go get something to eat now," she said, before sauntering out of the room.
I couldn't help but wish that I could turn back the clock and never have met certain people. But I knew that every experience, good or bad, teaches us a lesson or serves as a blessing in some way. There was no point in regretting the past.
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2hours passed by in a blink of an eye and here I am sitting idle without knowing what to do instead, my mind is full of thoughts which aren't even helping my matters.
I have to get Najma a new phone. I want it to be a surprise.
I Immediately got up and maneuvered my way to mum's room
"Mum I am going out and will be back in like 20mins" I say hoping that she wouldn't stop me.
"Don't spend more than that its almost dark and take the driver along with you" She ordered in a motherly tone.
"Ok mum, bye" I say and hurriedly dash out before she changes her mind.
I called out for the driver and we headed to the nearest plaza.
I got her the latest phone in there. That'll do for now I thought while admiring the phone in my hand.
I payed for it, collected the receipt and headed out grinning from ear to ear.
"Let's go" I tell the driver
My phone kept ringing, it is Ameer.
Why does he suddenly wants to speak to me?
I decide not to answer the call.
We arrived home and my phone still kept ringing.
I decided to answer this time around and wait for him to start talking.
"Hi Leenah, how're you?" He says immediately I pick up the call.
"I'm fine What do you want?" I ask
"I'm back and I really want to see you" he says sounding desperate.
I let out a soft chuckle "You can't see me as I have so many schedules to handle" I snapped
"Don't act like that Leenah" how dare he tell me how to act???
"You shouldn't tell me how to act! You don't have that right ok?" I snapped again
"Please just allo....." he started stating and I just hung up the call and maneuver inside.
"Hey! Why is your face like that? And you didn't even say salam while walking in?" Mum ask while shooting me some glares.
"Salam! Mum I'm back, I have to go pray now" I say all at once and sauntered to my room.
I don't want to start talking about Ameer to my Family right now, I have to get him out of my head first so I don't break down while narrating the whole thing to them.
I prayed and ate before I called Aleeya up. I haven't talked to her since when she left and God knows that I miss her a lot.
"Hii sis" i yelled over the phone immediately she picked up.
"Hi munchkin, you've remembered about me today??" She ask sounding surprised
"C'mon, how can I forget about my other half" I say sweetly while removing my veil and placing the phone I got Najma on the side drawing.
"Well, who knows"
"I miss you so much sis, no one to talk to and you know I cannot share some things with Meelah as she's too young" I say and crashed on the bed.
"You can always call and I will always be there, nothing will change that we just not living in the same town not that we are no longer sisters" she say amazingly.
"Yes right! Where's the owner of my sister's heart?" I ask referring to her husband.
"He's in his room, he's having headaches" she says sounding worried.
"You've already started giving him headaches? I can't believe you Aleeya" I say chuckling
"Shut up now before I knock your head through the phone. how far with Ameer?" She asks
"Ohhh, we've broken up... he's with someone now" I say rolling my eyes.
"Lord! That asshole! How dare he? When did all this happen?" She half yelled
"The day of your dinner" I narrated the whole story to her. Including Noor's part.
"I don't even know what to say right now cause what he just did is something that can't be forgiven and he even have the guts to keep contacting you? After all that has happened?" She say in disbelief.
"It's bound to happen! I don't want to keep stressing myself about someone who clearly showed me how much he didn't love or need me" I say disappointedly
"But you now have that your savior, if He's a good one then i am giving you a heads-up all the way from my place" she say excitedly
"Don't think like that, we just friends and we barely even talk these days" i say trying to get her hopes down.
"Okay okay okay, I have to go now... keep me updated hun, Bye!" She say out of the blue.
"Bye! My regards to Asad"
"Sure take care" with that, we hung up
I prayed and immediately nod off.
I'm so exhausted from doing nothing.
