Cold Hearted (Jack Gilinsky fan fiction)

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Five days have passed since mine and Jack's talk, and it's now Saturday afternoon. Jack and I haven't talked since that night we talked. We just sat quiet around each other and talked to our friends.

My phone was buzzing like crazy. I finally got annoyed and checked my phone. I had so many notifications from Twitter. They were all from Jack. He kept tweeting stuff like, "I need to see you.. ASAP", "I miss your face", "It's almost your birthday :)". Really? Is he indirect tweeting about me? Wow.. But I'm not gonna lie, it's cute. I was just about to get ready to take a shower, when my phone started to buzz. I didn't bother to check who it was before answering. "Hello?" "Hey, it's JJ. Are you free to hang out today?" "Yeah, is everything ok?" "Yeah, I just wanna talk to you." "Oh, ok. Well I'll get ready now and then we can just meet up at the park." "Ok, bye Lyss." Since we were just goung to the park, I just threw on hollister shorts, a pink pastel victoria secret lace top, and pink pastel vans. I curled my hair and threw it up in a messy ponytail, and then applied mascara and light pink lipstick. I said bye to my sisters and parents then went to meet JJ at the park.

"Hey, so tell me what's up." I said to JJ sitting on a swing next to him. "Nothing really, I just wanted to ask you something." JJ said. "Go ahead." "Ok, so ever since second grade when I met Maggie, I told myself that I could never like her, because she had seemed like a jerk at the time, but now that I really know her. I've realized that she's nothing like what I though and I really like her, and I know she doesn't like me back and I don't know how to tell her how I feel." JJ said frowing. "JJ, you obviously know wrong, because Maggie's liked you since second grade. And she's begged me tons of times to help her tell you how she feels, but all I told was this 'If you really him, then you just have to go with the flow and tell him how you feel in person. Don't hide the way you feel with some fake, cheesy, quotes.' And obviously she doesn't have all the confidence to tell you. But I think you could tell how her how you feel. Just tell her that you'll pick her up tonight at 7, and take her to on a date in the park or something. And then and there pour your feelings out to her." I told JJ. "Wow, you really know about this stuff. And is that like your dream date or something?" JJ said laughing. "Actually, yeah it is. Just to go on a walk in the park, be dumb, have fun, be wild, and be in love with a great guy who I can trust and care for me.." I proclaimed. "Wow, that sounds really fun. I hope you have that with Jack." JJ said with a smirk. "So, I'm assuming you want to know what happened that night at your party?" "Umm, yeah!" "Ok, well, I was drunk and he was about to leave me in your room so I could rest, but I told him to stay and lay down with me. Well, I was drunk and kissed him.." JJ cut me off. "Did he kiss back?!" JJ questioned. "Yeah and then I pulled away, because I was confused and I don't want to ruin our friendship over a relationship. Then I just looked at him after what had just happened, then he pulled me into another kiss and I kissed back. After a while, I pulled away and that's when I went looking for Maggie. We talked on Tuesday about this. He basically said everything I said on how we have to just be friends. I don't want to develop feelings for him, JJ, but I can't control how I feel about him." I explained to JJ, letting out a few tears. JJ pulled me into a hug. "Lyss, listen, you give out great advice to people, use some of your own advice on this. All I can tell you is that, I know for a fact that Jack likes you, he would die if any other guy had you. Why else do you think he's always annoyed when Bailey is around? After Bailey and you went through a tough relationship, Jack said he didn't want to see you ever have to deal with an ass like him, but now that you guys are just friends, Jack is afraid that he'll make a move and take you back from him. You mean the world to Jack and I, but Jack has a different type of love for you, than I do.." JJ explained, wiping the tears off my face. I'm sure there's mascara all over my face right now. What ever happened to us not falling for each other and keeping things how they have always been? If that's really how Jack feels then I can't feel bad for liking him too, but I'm not going to ruin our friendship over a relationship, it's not worth the pain and fighting. I would know, from what i experienced with Bailey. "Wow, thanks JJ, you've been a great friend ever since kindergarten and I couldn't ask for anyone better than you and Jack. I love you guys, and I'd be lost without you guys." I told JJ, giving him a goodbye hug. "Text me later." JJ said, beginning to walk away. "Wait, JJ, have Jack's tweets been about me?" I asked. "I'm pretty sure, but he has been talking to this girl lately. I think he said her name is Jenna. But don't worry about it too much." JJ said walking away again.

Me - Hey, can you come over
Jay Dogg;) - Yeah, why? What's wrong? =/
Me - I just wanna talk to you about something..
Jay Dogg;) - K. On my way now.
Me - K c:

I was lying on my bed, listening to music, scrolling through twitter, when I felt a hand touch my leg. I shot up, scared half to death, only to find Jack sitting on my bed laughing at my reaction. "Really, Gilinsky?!" I said turning my music off, and unplugging my earphones from my phone. "Sorry. So what did you want to talk about?" Jack questioned. I put my phone on the night stand and sat up next to Jack. "When we talked the other day, what did you mean by 'I don't want to lose you'?" I questioned. "I just don't want to see you walk out on me and then-" Jack started until I cut him off. "Jack, even if we were going through hell with each other, I wouldn't walk out on you. But that's not the only thing I want to talk about.. I was talking to JJ today and he told me that you like me a lot and that when I dated Bailey, you were only always so protective because of the relationship I had with Bailey and you never wanted to see me with a guy like him ever again, and that's why you're always annoyed when Bailey is around, which is every day.. You have a different type of love for me than JJ does, you don't know how to express your feelings to me, so that's why you kissed me back at the party-" I started. "Woah, woah, woah, yeah, that's true that I don't trust Bailey with you, but I didn't turn on to you because 'I can't express my feelings for you', I may like you, but there's something about you that I'll never understand and be able to live with, if we were in a relationship." Jack said with anger. I didn't know how to react, other than cry. "Get out, Jack." "What?!" "GET OUT! I don't want to talk to you anymore for today!" I said shoving him out of room and locking the door behind him. I ran over to my bed and called JJ about the situation.

Jack's POV

"Jack, even if we were going through hell with each other, I wouldn't walk out on you. But that's not the only thing I want to talk about.. I was talking to JJ today and he told me that you like me a lot and that when I dated Bailey, you were only always so protective because of the fucked up relationship I had with Bailey and you never wanted to see me with a guy like him ever again, and that's why you're always annoyed when Bailey is around, which is every day.. You have a different type of love for me than JJ does, you don't know how to express your feelings to me, so that's why you kissed me baxk at the party-" Alyssia started when I cut her off. "Woah, woah, woah, yeah, that's true that I don't trust Bailey with you, but I didn't turn on to you because 'I can't express my feelings for you', I may like you, but there's something about you that I'll never understand and be able to live with, if we were in a relationship." Lie. I couldn't tell her how I actually feel, not to mention, that I've met this girl that I may be falling for. She's closer to me than JJ and I are, which is really close, even though we all grew up together, I should've been spending more time with JJ, but no, I was always with Alyssia. The last thing I wanted to do was make her cry, especially if I'm the reason why. "Get out, Jack." She said beginning to cry. "What?!" "GET OUT! Jack, I don't want to talk to you anymore for today." Alyssia screamed, shoving me out of her room, then locking her door. I screwed up.