Cold Hearted (Jack Gilinsky fan fiction)

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 It's been two days since I had a miscarriage, which mean it's also been two days since anyone's heard from Jack. JJ has tried reaching out to him but gets nothing. I don't want to waste my time figuring out where he is, if he really loves me, then he'll come home to me. 

 "Alyssia!" Someone yelled pulling me out of my thoughts.

 "What?"

 "Jack just called, he said not to look for him he's doing his own thing now," JJ said, "I think you should give him time to think straight." 

 Then it hit me. "I know where Jack is." I said getting everyone's attention.

 Jack showed me this secret place sophomore year out in the middle of nowhere. He built it with his dad. Shocker right? The Gilinsky men don't seem that handy. The hideout looked like a shed, but it was roomier than what it looked like. Inside was a radio, a sofa, bean bags, and a mini fridge. He told me that he would come here to get away from everything and try to think straight.

 "Are you sure you know?" Maggie asked.

 "One hundred and ten percent." I said.

 "Let's go then." Jenn said.

 "No," I said, "you guys stay here, I'm going alone. JJ track my phone 10 minutes after I leave." He nodded.

I hopped in my car and drove off.

On the way there I didn't listen to any music. I drove in complete silence, scared of what may happen when I get there.

I pulled to the hideout. It looked so different from the last time I was here.

This place brings back memories.. Not bad but good memories. Whenever I was pissed and not thinking straight I'd come here with Jack and smoke hookah. Sometimes I came here to get away from the drama at home and to forget that Cameron (my brother) was joining the military. A couple of times I came here and Jack was already here. Those nights eventually ended with Jack and I making out. At the time I didn't like him and I'm sure he didn't like me either. It was always a distraction from our problems.

I hadn't realized I was crying until I felt a tear drop onto my arm.

I wiped away my tears and opened the car door and slowly walked to the hideout.

I walked in and saw Jack sitting in on a bean bag staring at the wall.

"Jack." I said. No response.

"Jack." I said a little louder this time, my voice cracking. No response again.

I walked over to him and crouched down in front of him.

He looked like he'd been crying.

"Jack, talk to me baby. Please." I was now crying. He started crying too.

"You killed our baby." He cried.

"Don't you dare start that, you know I didn't know I was going to have a miscarriage." 

"I'm sorry. I keep blaming you that's all I can do right now." He got up and I followed.

"Jack, there's no one to blame. It wasn't anyone's fault." He stood there silent for a few minutes. He turned around and hugged me.

"I'm sorry for everything."

"I'm sorry too. This was never in my intentions."

"I know." 

I grabbed his hand and walked him to the sofa. We both sat down and looked around the room.

"Remember when we would come here and smoke hookah?" He asked. I laughed and nodded. Those were the good times.

"Remember when I was you first kiss?" I turned and looked at him. He looked at me smiled and nodded.

The next thing I know, we were making out. Jack had pinned me down on the sofa. I started to pull on the hem of his shirt when he pulled away and started walking around in circles.

"Jack, what's wrong?" I asked. He just kept walking in circles and pulling on his hair in frustration.

I got off the sofa, walked up to him and grabbed his hand. "Jack, you have to trust me and tell me what's going on." I said trying to calm him down.

"I feel so guilty." He said.

"Jack, please just tell me."

"I cheated on you." He sighed.

I stormed out of the hideout. I didn't know what to do. If I leave I may never see him again but I don't wanna look at him right now. I just want to go somewhere with no drama and relax.

"Alyssia, stop!" Jack yelled.

"Stop what, Jack? Walking to my car to leave? What's the point of me staying here with you? You cheated on me! Because I lost the baby and it's my fault?! You're sick, Jack!" I yelled back.

"I called Leigh --" 

"YOU DID WHAT?! "

"LET ME FINISH DAMMIT!" He yelled making me shut up. "I called Leigh over after you had a miscarriage and I told her what happened and I don't know, I guess I just wanted to let my anger out."

"So you expressed your anger through sex with Leigh?! Wow, thanks for making me feel a lot better, Jack!" 

"I'm sorry but--" 

"But what? But I killed the baby I was pregnant with? That's not right, I didn't intend on getting pregnant in the first place, but I thought it through with the help of your family. My family could give two fucks about me. I wanted to have that baby. I was ready and I know you were too. I was so involved with being pregnant and getting things ready for the baby that I didn't realize what was going on with you. You kept getting these mood swings? I don't know- but I do know that you're a cold hearted son of bitch, Jack. All you care about is yourself, no one else matters to you. Fuck you. I never want to see you again!" I yelled and turned around to see JJ watching this.

I walked to JJ gave him a hug and said "I hope your career goes good. I love you, and I'm sorry I took away your best friend in kindergarten. You can have him back now." I said. It took him a second to understand what I was doing.

I walked to my car and drove back home. Luckily no one was here. I'm sure JJ will tell everyone what's going on. Magcon can/will continue without me. I packed all of my stuff and headed back to the car. I drove to the airport. I was lucky I bought my ticket before it was too late to get one. Next stop, California!

  You guys are going to hate me but that's the end of the story. I know its extremely short, but don't worry there will FOR SURE (110%) be a sequel. Thank you all for reading this story, I know it was crappy, but sequel will be better! 

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