Mafia - Mattia Polibio & Dolan Twins.

Chapter 42

   MATTIAS P.O.V.

  The vacation was horrible. Going in italy made me feel excited as it's a place that we had tons of memories together and it's also my home.

    But i don't belong to myself anymore.

    All I've been feeling is the need to cause someone the same pain that Lea caused me. I still don't know why i bacame so obsessed with her but when im with her, my crazy habits seem to go away, and the only thing on my mind is her. I love focusing on her when she does simple things - looking through documents, doing her makeup or working out. But she drives me crazy and i don't understand why she behaves the way she does.

    I've never been bothered by her previous partners, even tho we fucked more often in the past, i couldn't give a shit who she was waking up next to. Now i want to be the only person waking up to her, and she doesn't realise that. I've never been self-concious. Even tho i always lost my cool and mentally have been through hell, pride is the only thing that i have left.

   I don't even know what the fuck is wrong with me, I've felt this with Amalia, the jealousy was killing me and so i did horrible things.

  But Lea Andalini? She's different - she couldn't give a less shit about any other guy. It doesn't matter if he's a millionaire or a fucking angel from the sky above, they're all the same for her. I'm calm knowing that she'll never look at anyone else seriously but I'm just like the other guys for her.

   Either ways - if i was any different for her, she could atleast get jealous when she saw me with another. I didn't even give a shit about her, i don't even remember her name and i met her 10 minutes before Lea would come back in our hotel room. She seemed all pleased from her one night stand with that cagna. I don't even understand what she saw in him? Or that andres guy that i had to get rid of earlier. I hated how she saw me make out with someone else, not even bothering to look my way and then went outside and hung out with a fucker that she's known for only few hours.

    Everyone's a distraction to her from what's really happening in her life. I know that for a fact - when nana died and her dad got in a coma, i was the one distracting her, now that we're financially doing bad and she can't figure out who's our enemy, she's fucking with a douche who's one head shorter than her.

    I honestly can't wait to go back home. I don't care that i killed someone just because of Lea. For the second time. I just don't have enough energy left in me to continue showing how much i care, knowing she'll never appreciate what i do for her.

   LEAS P.O.V.

"Yes, i want to transfer my car from Milano to LA" i said while talking to Carlo.

  "It's the Ferrari 812 Superfast, Type F152M The black one. It's the one that i customized last year, remember?" I told him as i packed my things back into the suitcase.

  "Okay, by the time you're coming back to LA, it's going to wait for you in the garage" he said and i laughed.

  "Good boy" i said and he hung up, probably cracking up.

  "You're done with your luggage?" Kiernan walked in and sat down on the bed.

  "Are you asking about emotional or actual luggage?" I tried to joke.

"This vacation was fun as fuck if Mattia didn't ruin it" she said.

  "So you talk shit about me huh?" Mattia walked in and took his shirt off and throwing it in his suitcase which was messy as fuck.

  "Why shouldn't i? You've been an asshole lately" Kiernan rolled her eyes.

  "You didn't think that when i was rearranging your guts, didn't you?" He looked at her stopped for a second and raised his brow. WHAT.