Mafia - Mattia Polibio & Dolan Twins.

Chapter 45

              LEAS P.O.V.

    It's two days after the shooting. All i feel is how stupid i am, for falling for the trap my enemy has made for me. Not knowing who to trust has made me weak and it gives someone the opportunity to kill me in any moment. I can't chill, because i need to get my revenge but i feel like im absolutely blind, and unable to make a move.

    My mind is all messed up from thinking about everything at the same time. I haven't been sleeping well, even tho Mattia hasn't left my side and has been taking care of me, i can't focus on anything i do.

   more people could get hurt and it would be my fault. We could all just die there and it would be the end of the story. I wasn't by Ricks side the first time and now the second time, and it's messing with my sanity.

   "Im sorry for letting you down" i said, grabbing his hand and kissing it.

   "I don't know what to do. I don't know, how long it will continue and im trying my best to keep my promise and find whoever's doing all of this, but I'm weak" i said while looking at his face. In this situation i know, he'd wipe my tears away and tell me that I'm the strongest. He would tell me that i should never let anyone make me think opposite and that I'll easily achieve anything i want. But he's laying there, with his eyes closed and only the warmth of his body is giving me hope.

   "I wonder what's in your mind right now" i said, sitting closer to him and gently rubbing his cheeck with my thumb. I'm scared that he's in a dark place now, that he's suffering from his own thoughts and demons, not letting his soul rest. The only time I've seen him completely broken was the day Annabelle left us.

   I remember, i got home from my dance classes and the house was more quiet than usual. I walked in the living room, and saw him, sitting on the couch, having his face covered with his palms, crying. I froze on my place, because i was shook from what i was seeing.

   "What happened" i asked him. He suddenly looked up at me, wiping his tears away trying to say something, but there were no words coming out of his mouth.

   "Where's mom" i asked him and he got up, getting closer to me, trying to look in my eyes. I knew something bad happened because, I've never seen him be like that before and i remember that they were fighting alot at night for the couple weeks. My nightmares turned into reality.
  
   "She left" he said and my eyes widened. I didn't know what that meant in that moment because she had left many times before that, but she'd always take me with her and it always felt like just a weekend in my grandparents house.

     But it was different this time. My dad is a taugh and a faithful man, who never looses his hope and who never shows his emotional side, just like me. In that moment, it felt like he wasn't even the Riccardo Andalini i knew, it was someone else.

    "We're going to be fine" he said, hugging me tightly and i understood in that moment that Rick loved Anabelle with his whole heart and he tried his best to work things out but mom left and she would never come back.

   I will never forgive her for the pain that she caused my dad. I still hear those awful words in my head "you're killing people Rick, you're a horrible, cold-blooded murderer and i don't want our kid to be like you, because she's innocent, she doesn't deserve that kind of life". She didn't want me to continue family business, because she wanted to keep me safe from this life, but it's in my blood, and I'm the proudest to say that im Ricks daughter.