My Soliloquy Disgruntled With Love

Falling...

Im not sure what falling for u is theres a million explanations
But i think its hearing you say "seyo drama" while you smile betrays the words that just came out of your mouth.
Its getting video calls at eight at night and starting a new day 6 hours later thus your voice is the first thing I hear
Its having 3 conversations at a time because it feels like we racing with time
I think love, its blurting out exactly how i feel about you look at me "like that". Its unplanned and sloppy, the exact opposite of how I wanted it to happen but the smile on your face tells me that it was perfect in its own way.
Could be the feeling when I hold your hand
for the first time in public id find eternity between our palms
Love is being afraid to let me know about certain parts of yourself, but telling me anyways. Dancing with you despite both our left two feet.
Love is asking you a million times a day "how you feeling now"  to the point of annoyance.
Its being there for you even for the smallest things  to big stuff that need intimacy and strength to utter such.
Its having inside jokes never ending laughter, the kinda laugh that radiates with joy
Maybe it is being compelled to look at you and somehow the world stops shifting, small flashbacks of moments that drew me to you kick in and butterflies emerge till reality kicks in.
Im not sure what falling for you is, but from what ive discovered its you, and it just might be magical
Then i don't want to let it go, then ill cling to the fall, then it might just be the greater purpose for our meet will catch us. And if so its the kinda feelings i wanna stick around for