Back from the Start

CHAPTER 1 A MEMORY FROM THE PAST

Mars’s POV

December 10, 2019, I can feel the cold breeze of December, its already 10:00pm. We decided to take a walk to get some fresh air. The moon shines so bright to the point that the street lamps were already useless. I can hear the leaves rattles when the wind touches them. The night was so quit, no other people around or vehicles that pass by. It was just us, walking silently. I look up into your face and see a blank expression. I clear my throat to break the silence.

“ehm!”

Then you stopped and so did I. You look at me with a smile on your face, a smile that everyday I see but won’t get tired of it, a smile that keeps me going for weeks of tiring school works and problems, a smile that can stop a traffic, a smile that I will surely never forget.

You saw a bench nearby and decided to take a sit. I can feel the cold metal touches my skin that gives me shivers the soon we take a sit. I put my hands together and rub it to produce heat then touch my face to ease the coldness I feel.

You noticed that I’m shivering so you take of your jacket that reveals your toned body wearing a fitted white shirt then you put your jacket around me while still wearing that smile of yours.

“Isn’t it beautiful?” you said while looking up to the sky.

I look right at you and reply

“Indeed it is.”

Then the silence covers the place again. I can sense that you’re not at ease so I break again the silence with this words.

“I love you.”

I look down while saying those words. But I got no response.

“Do you hear what I said?”

I mumbled with a broken voice and look back right at you. Your still looking up at the sky where the shining moon is but the smile on your face is now gone. I can feel that my tears are coming out, with all the pride left to me with my eyes closed I said those words again trying to make it clear.

“I…love you.”

I can hear my voice shaking but still I hear no response. Even if my eyes close I can still feel your presence right beside me.
I opened my eyes and find you standing beside with your back facing me. I saw you take a deep breath and said.

“Ayoko na!”

Then you walk straight away from me without looking back or stopping.
I was in shocked sitting at the bench with a blank face still processing what happen. He just left me like that, No explanation, No goodbyes.
Suddenly everything is dark.

The moon earlier that shines so bright was covered by a thick dark clouds. White streak line draws into the sky and a wide flash follows. I found myself into a vast of darkness the wind is getting stronger and colder. I can’t feel my face anymore and just then I feel something warm coming down to my cheeks. I wipe it out and realize that I was crying all out then the heavy cold rain pours. I don’t know what to do so I just sit there and cried still processing what happen.
We were happy a moment ago and just like that. That happiness ended without knowing why.

As I let the rain pours and touches my head down to my cheeks where my tears meet them, I close my eyes reminiscing our happy moments together. There are hundreds of them, when I was about to open my eyes I saw again your smile earlier when you handed me your jacket. The smile that everyday I see but won’t get tired of it…
A smile that keeps me going for weeks of tiring school works and problems…

A smile that can stop a traffic…

A smile that I will surely never forget...

A smile that I will not see anymore
....

I opened my eyes and started walking, I don’t know where to go or what to do. I was just walking with my eyes down, tears falling, and heart broken.

Without giving attention to where I was walking I accidentally slipped and knock myself down to the ground. I felt something hard hit on my head. 

From where I was lying down I can clearly see the dark sky and the cold rain pouring directly to my face. I can feel my eyes getting heavy and now closing down, everything now is a blur.

Im still conscious and heard an approaching step while calling out my name.

“Mars? ..Mars are you okay?” It’s a boy and I can’t see him clearly but I can feel the worry of his voice while calling me.

“Mark? you came back” I can barely hear my voice. I hear no response so I assume he did not hear me because of the hard rain pouring down.

The next thing I know he was carrying me like a newlywed couples, I can still hear him calling my name Then I pass out.

“Iphone Ringtone”

With my eyes closed I tried to reach my phone. I opened my eyes para tignan kung sino ang tumatawag. 9:30am/ April 9, 2020 / 5 missed calls from Alex  / 15 msg. binalik ko naman agad ang phone ko kung saan ko ito kinuha kanina. With my eyes half open I managed to slipped my feet to my Gucci slip on and walking my way to the cr. I found myself standing in front of the mirror and just stare at myself. I rest my hands sa long counter type sink below the mirror and lean forward closer to my reflection.

“It was just a dream.”

I said with a serious face. This dream keeps on hunting me over and over again.

"What happen is already buried and long forgotten Mars.” I said to myself and grab the towel beside me then locked the door to take a shower.