Your Guardian Angel {Slow Updates}

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

“Out of sight, in your mind.”

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Sam's POV

He always left me a meal on the table every morning since she left.

I never saw him in the house everytime I walk downstairs to start my day. But the presence of his cooked food is in the kitchen everytime.

The first time he did that, my eyes were puffy and I was too depress to change my clothes since yesterday. It was pancakes, one single muffin and hot choco. I looked around after I saw the meal but I didn't saw him in the house.

Noon came and he still wasn't home. I was lying on the couch watching random channels when my phone rang. It was Julie.

“Hey” she greeted.

“Hey” I had said awkwardly.

“I called to tell you how sorry I am—”, she explained. “You're not the one who needs to be sorry.” I butted in “I'm the one who needs to be.”

I regretted yelling at her that day. I was soo stupid to just argue about a broken mirror. We had just discuss our argument about Harper a day before and we fought again the day after. And i knew that both the argument was all my fault. I both started it. I was the one who's suppose to apologize.

“I'm so sorry— I'm so sorry for yelling at you. I'm so sorry for not listening to you. And I'm so sorry for yelling at Miles to leave.”

She sighed and said, “You were just stressed out, Sam. You know that. We all know that.”

She didn't need to say it for me to understand. I already knew that. I'm bipolar.

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The next 3 days, the same routine continued. I woke up late in the morning, he left me breakfast, he wasn't home, I sometimes ate it, I watch t.v. the whole day, and I wait for him to come home.

He usually came back home before dinner and he'll cook dinner. I go straight to bed then, eventhough he wasn't done cooking. I dont eat dinner.

Every afternoon, Julie would call me. She would tell me her day, and I would tell her mine which only lasted for a minute.

“I woke up late in the morning. I took a bath. Went downstairs to see that Miles left me breakfast again. And I spend my whole day watching t.v. and surfing the net.” I had said to Julie when she wanted to know what I did today. My lines didnt change, actually.

“Did you ate your breakfast and lunch?” Julie asked. A lump formed in my throat.

“Yeah,” I lied. “I made sandwich for lunch.”, I partly lied.

“Does Miles always go out?” I asked randomly. “No” she answered.

“Why the sudden concern?” she asked.

“I dont know. You always mention him and I just—”, I trailed off. “I just miss his morning presence, you know.” I tried again, “And I'm sometimes already asleep when his home.”

“Out of sight, in your mind?”, she suggested. “Yeah.” I agreed.

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I made the effort of waking up early the next morning.

I took a bath at 7:30 in the morning eventhough I slept late at midtime last night. I just wanted to catch up with Miles before he leaves.

I immediately went downstairs after I clothed myself, worrying that he may already left. But when I saw him setting the table with breakfast, I sighed in relief. “Good morning.” I greeted. He looked at me with a furrowed eyebrow; confusion written on his face.