LEILA

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

"I would stab that bitch right in the heart."

As if she has one.

His hold on my neck loosened as soon as those words left my mouth. He was not expecting that from me. In any other circumstances, i would never even think of hurting a person but here i had no room for second thoughts. It was only going to make me weak.

"You'd kill her." He muttered.

"Yes. With my own hands." I said through clenched teeth.

I couldn't decipher the emotions on his face or maybe there were none. I didn't know what he expected me to say. If i wasn't planning on doing something to her i wouldn't waste my time and money to catch her in the first place.

"You'd kill her." He stated.

He has lost it before you Leila.

"Brad, I think i should leave." I said

"What so you mean you should leave?" He asked.

"I mean leave your house an get a place of my own."

"It's not just my house Leila, it's yours too now. I thought you wanted us to give a chance."

"I did but I need to get Amanda first and if you keep interfering in it, I'll never be able to. Now that your friend is not going to help me, i have to find some who will." I said.

He looked at me shock. It hurt me too saying those things to him. I also wanted to built a relationship and have a lovely family but if he was going to stop me from getting my revenge i had get away from him. Liam was always first for me.

"So you're gonna leave me?" He asked, the hurt clearly visible on his face. His eyes showed sadness that I'd never seen before.

"You need to understand me Brad. Liam was everything to me, he was a my friend, my brother, my soulmate. And he did not deserve to die." I cried. Liam was my family, he helped when no one did.

"What about me? I mean nothing to you?" He asked.

"You know it's not like that. You mean a lot to me and you know that. It's just i- i don't-" At that moment i had no more power to control my emotions. The dam that was held back broke. I was a mess, my emotions were all over the place. Loosing people close to you is not easy. Every time i closed my eyes, the only that appeared in my mind was Liam's lifeless body on the floor with blood oozing out of his chest. And it was not a good image.

"Give it time. Everything's gonna be alright baby." He said as he hugged me close.

"Why does it have to be me? Everything i touch falls apart. Why?"

"It's not like that Leila, you're just over thinking."

"No you don't get it. My mom left our family with me and she died. I got a job and then i got fired. I got a house, it burnt down. And the person closest to me, Liam who did everything he could for me to have a better life died."

"It's almost as if, as if I'm cursed or something. I am scared. Why don't you get it?" I sobbed. Sometimes i feel envious of people who seem have a perfect life but i am just a mess. All those people with a happy family, an amazing partner and adorable sweet kids. It just makes me feel so bad about myself.

"Are you hearing yourself Leila? All that's coming out of your mouth is bunch of crap. You want to leave because you think you're cursed. You had zero control over anything that happened in your life. You stop this bullshit right now and you're are going nowhere. And that's final. I get you're going through hard times but that doesn't mean you are going to ruin your future. What happened was past but I am not letting you destroy our future." He snapped. Things he said did make sense but how could i just believe it, after all nothing ever good happened to me.

The doorbell rang putting an end to our heated discussion. I was in way or form in a good condition to open the door and see the face of another human being. I managed to pick myself up from the ground and hurried to the room. When i looked at myself in the bathroom mirror i almost didn't recognise myself. The dark circles under my eyes were horrid due to the sleepless nights, that i hadn't noticed before. I looked pathetic or i was just pathetic.

I washed my face with ice cold water to make myself feel better but then i looked at my hands that were covered in best friend's blood just a couple days ago.

Brad knocked on the bathroom door after a few minutes "Jordan is here to see you." he said.

I opened the door making the least noise possible.

"Tell him i am sleeping, i don't- i can't see him right now." I muttered.

"It's important he says, you'd want to hear. But if you don't want to see him, I'll just let him know you're asleep." He said and turned back in the direction he came from.

"No wait. I'll see him." I said and he nodded slightly before leaving me alone. I quickly dried my face and put some concealer on to hide my dark circles.

He was in a conversation with Brad when i entered the living room.

"Leila. You look beautiful." He said and it almost brought a small smile to my face. He always said that to make me feel better. He was the kind of person to not really pity people in such conditions because in all honesty pity from others did not make me feel even a tad bit better. It was all just a couple of words with no meaning to them at all.

"You shouldn't be here." I said.

"Oh, don't worry about me I'm healing really fast. I needed to tell you something real important." He said.

"You could have called, i mean coming all the way here all alone is not good for your health."

"I could but i didn't want to miss a chance to see your pretty face light up." Nothing anyone could do or say at the moment to make me feel better.

I just shook my head slowly.

"The police got her." Those four words. Those four word flipped everything upside down.

"You- you mean Amanda?" I asked and he nodded and my face lit up just like he said.