Corona VS Love

Nothing is really over!

13 December 2019
The same night
Minutes passing by and I was walking, sinking myself into the lyrics of the song in my ears. I let a sigh slip away from me while the wind pushed against me, cold was icing my face And the night was so dark ,only the stars gave a partial enlightenment through the night! It was pretty dangerous to walk on the beach at that time. However, I couldn't care less!
I didn't really care about the rules and whoever put them either! I just wanted to scream at the sea for making me feel like shit then.
Maybe I was harsh on her!
And maybe I wasn't and she deserved it!
Relaxing vibes was what I needed right now!
Little peace!
Silence even!
Now I know how I let you down
Oh! I finally figured it out
I forgot to love you, love you, love you!
Dean Lewis' voice was playing in my ears.
Looking at my phone's lock screen, it was 10:07 PM
Too early, I thought, sighing and closing my eyes for a moment!
I decided to turn around and call the night off and so I left the beach behind me, on my way to the sidewalk instead while I was struggling to walk steadily on the soft sand underneath and I could say the sea was so angry at me for leaving!
The sand was resisting and blocking my movements and by the time, I had reached the sidewalk, the sea went silent.
If the feeling's gone, stay awake stay awake
Stay awake with me
I thought about my sketchbook and for a second I hoped I would have the chance to get it back. My hands in the jacket pockets, putting on some confidence, I was in front of the café where my car was parked, I tried to take a good glance through the transparent windows. Abby wasn't there!
Disappointment filled my core.
"What are you still doing here?" A familiar voice came from behind! I was shocked for split of second, I didn't expect her to be there!
"Why you keep scaring me like that?", I turned around to face her!
She was holding a box across from her chest and I could see from her hard facial features, she had on that the box was heavy.
"Let me help you" I went to take the box from her but she dodged me and moved on the other direction. "No, thanks" she said with heavy attitude.
"As you wish!" Said I, reaching my car instead.
"You know? You Don't need the jacket you're wearing! You know why!" She stopped, turning around, facing me and opening the door with her back, " because you're damn cold, the jacket is useless!" And by that she disappeared behind the curtains of the café. That time, I got a good look at her clothes, she was wearing a fluffy dark blue skirt, just below her knees with black leather jacket.
There were no earrings around her short hair!
Her clothes were dull, unlike her soul! It was odd!
She wasn't okay!
And I was asshole with her an hour ago and didn't even notice she was in despair all along!
I was an asshole!
I had the weirdest eagerness to go after her and ask what had happened!
Still I was trying to follow her with my gaze through the semi transparent windows, she left the box on one of the tables near the entrance and stopped for a moment to sit on a chair. Her back was at my direction so I couldn't see her facial expressions in addition to that, she wouldn't notice my stares at her! Het body posture gave me a negative vibe or maybe because I had known she was not fine.
She was tired!
She was relaxing her forehead on her arms on the table.
I felt guilty and sorry!
And so I locked my car and went to the door, my destination was her! I sat on the chair next to hers, still she didn't raise her head.
I put my elbows on the table, giving my whole attention towards her.
"Your clothes are so dark today," she raised her head, tears were filling her cheeks and her hazel eyes were so red. She started to remove them with her hands, hiding her feelings away, she looked surprised! Her nose was pink.
"What happened?" I asked.
'I'm jerk' I thought.
"My sister died today!"
"What happened?"
She was trying to pull herself together from outside but inside, she was falling apart! I knew that!
"I knew she was dying and I was prepared for it bu- ." She stuttered, "but then it happened and I wasn't ready for it at all." Her voice was sore.
"I couldn't stay at home where everyone was dealing and crying and weeping and.." she took her breaths, stopping to collect her thoughts and comprehending!
"I'm really fine! You should just go! Leave me alone! I don't want your pettiness!" Pushing me away was what she was doing like what I had done an hour ago to her.
"I'm not leaving and I'm not even staying out of pettiness! I believe I have something here that belongs to me!" I said, her face was unreadable!
"It's still getting dried so why don't I take you out on walk on the beach, huh?!"
"Go away, Sam!" She rolled her eyes. Under the warm colors of the room, her hazel reddish eyes were shining like million stars!
She was a beautiful crier!
"I won't take no for an answer." I said, taking her hand and pushing her outside the café with me!
'I don't think clearly' I thought!
"You might drug me or something!!l she said, forgetting her sorrows for a moment and playing with my mindful games.
"Maybe" I shrugged. She hesitated for a moment and I laughed hysterically, letting go of her hand.
"Don't worry! I'm not kidnapping you."
"That's exactly what kidnapper would say!l
"We are not Strangers, are we?!!"
She didn't reply, just giving in with my reckless decisions.
"What time do you close your café?"
"Around 1 AM"
"Cool! we have about 3 hours"
"Where you taking me?"
"I'm not taking you anywhere, I didn't plan anything, let us just go to random places, shall we?"
"Now you creep me out" she said and I smiled, childishly.
"Get in the car, Abby! Let me bring back your smile"
It's gonna hurt for a bit of time,
So bottoms up, let's forget tonight,
you'll find another and you'll be Just fine.