Pulsing Rage (Mad Men, #2)

Kabanata 21

Kabanata 21

Sitting on the queen's chair and crossing my legs like a lady I am today, I sat with my dignity still intact with me. Terrible flashes passed through my vision as I stared at the television in front of me. The lights are blinding. Ilang beses akong napakurap upang makatuon sa pinapalabas ngayon.

I held the remote control like a sword.

Right now what I needed is my coherent and rational thoughts. I will not let the rage seeped through my skin and affects my thinking.

At my right side, Corey is standing tall like a knight. Naramdaman 'ko ang pagpisil niya sa aking balikat, tanda na nandito siya sa aking tabi. I held it for a matter of time and then, arranged my hands over my thighs.

Honestly, I don't even know what to feel.

Sinabi na ni Corey ang ibang detalye sa akin. Bago pa magsimula ang programa na magpapalabas ng live interview ni Trevor ay nakadetalye na sa isipan 'ko iyon. He told me that someone in Twitter posted our picture together. Pagkatapos ay kumalat na ang iba sa Facebook pati na rin sa Instagram. Pinagpyestahan na rin ng entertainment industry ng Pilipinas. Natitiyak 'ko na inulan na ang mga accounts 'ko ng mga threats from his crazy fans. Idagdag pa ang mga sumasamba kay Trevor. At the back of my mind, naiisip 'ko rin ang mga basher ni Mama ay ginagatungan ang mga ibang komento.

I breathed in through my nose.

Ang mga litrato nama'y nasa loob lamang ako ng kanyang sasakyan. It wasn't the time I hovered on him. The thought of it making me cringe. Iba naman iyon. This is actually the time we tried to eat outside in the middle of a freaking night but ended up getting food from drive thru. I didn't know that it will be...this big deal. Kasi sa akin, wala naman iyon.

For me, my pictures with him are nothing. People can snapped photos of me. I don't care. Really. Ang ayoko lang naman ay gumawa pa sila ng ibang istorya ang tungkol doon. Doon ako nagagalit. They will drag other names too which is really maddening. Once na lumabas ang ganitong istorya ay magtutuloy na ang labas ng baho mo. Na sila lang naman ang nakakaalam. This is really infuriating.

People are so mean.

Trevor is an asshole.

"I don't really want to say this on live..."

I winced, hearing Trevor's voice.

Kinagat 'ko ang aking dila upang hindi magbigay ng komento habang nanonood.

Tinutok 'ko ang atensyon kay Trevor. He looks like an angel, cladding himself in a white suit. Ayos na ayos ang porma ng buhok. Mukhang sangkaterbang gel ang nilagay upang mapanatili ang ganyang katayuan. Hindi 'ko maiwasang ipagdikit ang dalawang kilay sa amo ng kanyang mukha. Wearing such an innocent features...in live television, he's getting the people's sympathize.

The people...his fans should know that he is imbecile.

"Tita Girl...it's been months since we broken up. Elaine and I were really good together. Dati nga nagbibiro pa si tita Malia, that she would be my mother-in-law someday. I did really hope for it. But...right now, I am still heartbroken. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na wala na kami..." Trevor trailed off. He covered his face with his palms. Nang alisin niya ang kamay ay kitang-kita ang pagkapula ng kanyang mata sa pagpipigil.

I scoffed loudly.

Sobrang galing umarte!

"Is it really hard?" tita Girl questioned.

Trevor didn't take the question lightly. A lone tear travelled against his right cheek. He looked away and asked for tissue. May dumating naman na staff na may dalang tubig at tissue. Sad music cued before Tita Girl patted Trevor's shoulders. May bulungang sila lamang ang nakakarinig. Ilang segundo lamang ay bumalik na sa dating posisyon ang dalawa.