At the time, she was at the hospital after the surgery, everything felt fine! But when we bought her home, we realized how much pain she was going through everyday because we saw the nurse doing everything in front of our eyes!
To be honest, it was not easy to see her in so much pain!
But I still have some memories that I would never forget! The memories that changed my views. Sometimes it's not good to always listen to the doctors.
My grandmother would see me and smile! Sometimes she would have tears flowing from her eyes, sometimes she would try to move her mouth as if she wants to tell me something and sometimes she would hold my hand tight! These are the moments that filled my heart with happiness when there was no space left for it. And how could the doctors say she doesnt remember me when all these things are a proof that she does, right?
So watching her go through pain was not easy at all! Maybe I was abit selfish to fight with God to save her life, but not selfish enough to ignore her sufferings! But it was not in my hands!
But what was in my hands was to pray for her and I did not give up on praying.
Whenever she would go through sufferings, I would hold her hand to show her I'm there with her and whisper Gods name in her ear because at that point only he could help me not by reducing her pain but by giving her strength to go through it!
I never wanted to run away from seeing her suffer but I wanted to be with her during OUR SUFFERINGS! Yes,our sufferings because she was not suffering alone! And I'm proud of myself for being with her during her sufferings!
But to be honest, maybe i was selfish enough to fight with God to save her but it became way to hard to see her suffer everyday! And that perhaps changed my prayers because I wanted to now let her go back to her beloved lord because this life was now too painful for her!
"Oh lord, if theres hope then we will do everything we can to save her, but if theres no chance of recovery, then lord dont give my angel all these sufferings, take her with you... I leave it all on you, it's all in your hands and I will respect any decision you make! Amen," I prayed with tears dripping down my eyes.
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LIFE OF AN ANGEL
SpiritualeThis story is about an Angel I discovered. An Angel who changed my life in a magical way! Angels belong to heaven but there are Angels on earth too! What do they do? How are they so good? How can you identify an Angel? What do they look like? How i...
