discomfort - bbh

gone

I followed her to our room and asked her why she had to break the glass. "Be careful of what you say. Next time it won't be the glass which is breaking." she glared at me.

Something felt different tonight. I suddenly felt emptier than I did the nights before. Confidence was shooting up. And words just escaped my lips. Words I maybe should've kept to myself.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you acting this way? It's been a year and I have done nothing but treated you well. I've been loyal to you and took care of you when you decided to be a bitch and fuck around with some other guys. What happened to you? What happened to the Maddison that I met in the park? The Maddison that I fell in love with? The pure, kind and sweet one? Where is she?" I shouted at her. The second my words left my mouth I started to feel instant regret.

I shouldn't have said those words. Especially now, when she's completely gone. The time of the day where humanity has left her body completely.

She looked at me with a cold stare and took the next thing that was in her reach: a bat. She took all her strength to beat me up with it. I was on the ground, bleeding. And finally my consciousness has left me.

I opened my eyes and the bright sun was hitting my face. I looked around and found myself in an unfamiliar room. I felt slight pain while moving my head to turn and see that my arm was attached on a machine.

'I am in the hospital' I thought to myself. Now I remembered what has happened the night before. Maddie beat me up. But how did I got here?

My thoughts got interrupted by the door opening to reveal the doctor.

"Baekhyun. Here again, are we?" he said. It was the same doctor that I had always gone to. He always took care of my bruises, wounds.

"How did I get here doc?" I asked with my last strength. "Did Maddie bring me here? Where is she?"

The expression on his face changed into a sad one. "Baekhyun, tell me the truth. She has done all this to you, am I right?"

I looked down. I didn't want to tell him. It's kind of embarrassing, isn't it? Anyone with a sane mind would've left immediately. But I always came back to her. And I always came back to the hospital as well.

"She told me to tell you that it's over. And that she doesn't want to see you anymore. She got all of your stuff here. I'm sorry."

My eyes widened. She breaks up with me? She kicked me out? I guess I really hit a nerve yesterday. Where am I supposed to stay now?

What I felt about the break up? Nothing. The second she beat me up I felt nothing anymore. I felt numb. Empty. I guess everything she has done to me built up just to leave an empty hole in myself. All my feelings were gone. Not only towards her. Towards everything.

I'm changing the game now.

You won't see me care anymore.

I won't just let anyone do what they want with me anymore.

Today's the day I'll change.

It's my turn to make other's lives a living hell.