discomfort - bbh

toy

You're here. I can hear your footsteps.

I sat up waiting for you to enter the bedroom.

There you were.

You could barely keep your eyes open.

You could barely stand.

"Where were you?" I asked you.

You just ignored me.

You came towards me and pushed me onto the bed.

What are you doing?

You started to kiss me.

I could smell the alcohol.

"Can't you stop drinking Baek? You're always losing control." I told him.

Baekhyun I don't want this.

Not until you're sober and you really mean it.

I tried to push you away but you didn't stop.

You didn't like it.

You raised your hand and in a quick move you slapped your hand against my cheek.

My right cheek started to get hot and I could still feel his hand on me.

I didn't know a tear has already built at the corner of my eye.

I was so used to this.

Why were you crying Y/n?

He continued to kiss my neck and just ripped my clothes off.

Baekhyun I don't want this.

He didn't stop until I was completely naked.

I tried to push you again but it didn't work.

"Stop it you slut. We'll do it I don't care what you want or not." You said with so much power in your voice.

You took your clothes off.

Baekhyun isn't this something you should do with your loved one?

Do you love me?

I wasn't ready yet Baekhyun.

Please stop.

He placed his member right infront of my entrance and didn't hesitate to push in, not letting me adjust to his size.

I was crying.

I didn't want this.

This wasn't the first time either.

He moved faster and faster, moans escaping his lips.

I was just crying being pinned down underneath him, not able to say a word.

The pain should've faded long ago, but it didn't.

He was cursing and groaning underneath his breath.

"Turn around." he demanded.

I just did what he said.

Weird right?

I let you do what you want with me Baekhyun.

Why? I don't know.

Maybe because I still have the slightest hope that one day you will change for me.

That you will learn to cherish me if I stick around longer.

I'm just a toy to you right?

You use me and throw me away when you find something else.

And sometimes you come back to me to play with me again.

But after that you'll dump me. Again and again.