All the way back to the house I slowly regret all that I said. He needed to hear it though. A tiny voice keeps saying in the back of my mind. Zavian is in my old room right now. He hasn't said a word and that is so unsual for him. Harmony is with my mama. She giggles every once in awhile at a face that my mama makes at her. My dad is watching Kevin play. Constantly criticizing what he could have done to make this shot. Just the usual, and that's when I realize that deep down I have a part of him inside of me. That part came out today in the car. As Zavians fiance I should be in there right now trying to see what's wrong with him.
'' I'll be back mama.''
She glances up from tickling Harmony. ''Ok Honey handle your business.''
Letting out a sigh. I rise and head back to my room.
Zavian is sitting on my bed. I walk over to him draping my arm around his shoulders. ''What's wrong Zavian?''
''Really don't wanna fucking talk about it right now Genesis.'' He snarls.
I'm taking back for a minute,but I soon recover. ''Don't talk to me that way Zavian.''
Quickly he stands up, and looks dead at me. His eyes flaring.''Genesis fuck all this shit. I've tried my best to fucking make us perfect,and you basically throw all the shit I've done for you in my fucking face. Fuck you man. I really don't have time for this shit. Yeah I fucking messed up. Not once but fucking twice, but hell I thought I made it up to you. Naw here you go bringing up the past and shit. What type of shit is that baby? If you're not so fucking happy...if you are so damn stressed then hell leave my ass. I don't give a damn right about now. Leave me and my little girl alone.'' He is staring at me with pure anger and hurt flashing through his eyes.
Honestly I want to cry, but I'm not. '' Fuck you too Zavian. Fuck you and your dumbass trampy bitch of a baby mama who doesn't give not two fucks about her child. Fuck both of ya'll! Tear your ass Zavian! You say your pissed huh?'' I jump up in his face.'' You gonna do what you did last time? Huh Zavian? Is that what you're gonna do! You gonna fuck her to release your anger about me! You know you want to Nigga!''
He glares at me shaking his head. I push him back into the wall, and iI can feel his body heat. Shit.
We're standing body to body. Any other time I would be stepping down, but right now I refuse to step down. ''Answer me Zavian! You think you're gonna take my fucking child away from me? Nigga you couldn't take care of her even if you tried! I love you Zavian, but I will try my best to beat the living shit out of your ass if you try to take my child away from me! It'll be just like trying to get your strung out mama off the streets. The shit is not gonna happen.'' It all happens so fast...Zavian has me against the wall. I shouldn't have said that last part.
''Genesis your ass is stepping way to damn far! I'm this close to calling your ass a bitch! How dare you fucking talk to me like this Hell I cared about your ass when everyone called you fat ass and shit. Hell I loved your ass! I made you baby! Did I ever once make fun of your weight or talk trash about you? Hell naw and here you gonna targeting at my weak points. Fuck you Genesis.'' He grits out his teeth.
I'm blinking rapidly up at him. I have gone way to far. He backs away from the wall. Unclenching and clecnching his fist. Finally he hits the wall behind my head.
''Fuck!!'' He growls, and suddenly I'm like my mama. I feel bad for everything that I've said.
Gently I grab his hand and kiss his knuckle. I feel his body relax just a little bit. Not before he's pulling his hand away and walking out the door.
I sink to the floor and finally I let the tears fall. Shit. Shit. Shit. I don't think we have ever gotten into this kind of arguement. He could have hit me,but he didn't.
Suck it up Genesis I say to myself. Very poorly I wipe my tears away with the backs of my hands.
When I walk in the living room Zavian is gone and my mama is looking at me with wide eyes and Harmony is screaming.
''Genesis what the hell was going on back there?' She asks panic clouding her voice.
My dad marches up to me. '' He didn't hit you did he? I'll kick his ass!'' My dad says while examining my face.
''Nothing you guys. Really we're fine.'' I say.
''Didn't sure as hell sound like fine Genesis...'' my mama says looking at. Her eyes searching mine frantically. I look away.
''Where is he?'' I ask.
''He stormed out of her! Slammed my damn door!'' My dad says with annoyance.
Without asking I grab one of their car keys and walk out the door. I hear both my parents protesting. Mixed in with Harmonys screams, but I still crank up the car and drive off. I have to find hik before he does something stupid.
Sorry that it's so short! Sorry for the late update too! I owe yall but hopfeully you liked this chapter! Sorry for any mistakes!
