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Kei Tsukkishima (Request)

Requested by Mushuisdragon

ANGSTY!!
ASEXUAL READER

So to be honest, I don't know a whole lot about asexuality. I have a friend who's aroace but writing about someone who experiences attraction but not in a sexual way and not really knowing to what extent that is is difficult, but I'mma try I'm sorry if it turns out horrible, I just don't have any references or anything!

Tsukkishima POV

I got everything ready for when (C/n) got home. Tonight, I was finally going to officially mark him as my own. With his consent, of course. I think it'll work out. He's been a bit distant lately and I can tell that he's stressed. This is exactly what he needs to calm down.

Reader POV

I sigh as I get out of my car, walking to the door to the house that I share with my wonderful boyfriend. School has been very stressful lately and I can't help but feel far away from him.

When I walk in, I see a trail of (your favorite flower) petals.

"Aww. That's so sweet!" I say to myself.

I really hope it leads to some doughnuts.

I follow the trail, excited to see some food or romantic thing Tsukkishima has done. Like the one time on Valentine's day when he did something similar and he was standing at the end of the trail holding a stuffed (favorite animal) with a heart on it.

However, when I walked in, I stopped dead in my tracks. I didn't like what I saw. I had been avoiding this conversation for a while, but I guess that was a mistake.

Kei was lying on the bed, shirtless, no glasses, and. . .

oh, God. . .

He was biting a condom.

"Hey, (C/n)~" His voice was as monotone as ever, but trying to be sexy and he was also biting a condom so that affected his voice as well.

I just walked out of the room, about to head back to my car.

"Hey, wait!" He got up and ran to me. "What's your problem? Did I do something wrong? What did I do wrong?"

"You. . . You didn't do anything wrong, Kei. I just. . . don't want this."

"Don't want what? Don't want us? Don't want me? What?" I could tell he was on edge and upset. I feel bad, I won't lie, but I just. . . don't get it.

"Kei, that's not what I meant, I just-"

"What else could you have possibly meant?? " He asks, exasperated. "You've been avoiding me! "

"I have not! I've just been caught up with school and my classes and-"

"Oh, sure! That's what it is! You don't hate me? You're not cheating on me?? Is that what this is about?? What if I just went out and slept with some random bitch tonight?? I bet you wouldn't even care!"

"Tsukkishima I am asexual!" I yell.

"The fuck is that supposed to mean?? People aren't asexual! Bacteria are asexual! Do you think I'm stupid or something??"

"Do you even know what asexual means??? "

"It means to reproduce by making a copy of yourself and without a mate! That's not how humans work!"

"Asexual people don't want to have sex! I have no sexual attraction to anyone! I never have and I never will!"

"Well why not?"

"I don't know! If I have it, I'm just destined not to like it! I have never felt turned on in my entire life!"

"That's crazy! How do you know if you don't like it if you've never done it?? "

"Have you ever been stabbed?? I bet you know you wouldn't like that! And it's basically the same thing!!"

"I just want to have sex!"

"I'm sorry, but I will not participate!"

"You're so stubborn! I got all this set up for you and you haven't even thanked me!"

"I never asked you to! I never wanted you to!"

"I'm going for a walk. " He puts on a shirt and some shoes and leaves the house.

I go to the guest bedroom and hold onto the giant stuffed (favorite animal) Kei got me for Valentine's Day and cried.

A few hours later, I heard the door open and felt someone lay next to me, wrapping me in their arms.

"I'm sorry, (C/n). I had just never heard of it before. I went and had a talk with Kuroo, it turns out Kenma is asexual as well, so he helped me understand it a little bit better. I just didn't understand is all." Kei apologized softly.

"It's okay. I should have told you sooner. I understand if you want to date someone else who is willing to do that stuff with you." I close my eyes. He was behind me, so I can't read his face.

"Nah, I'm good. I mean, sure, sex was nice the couple times I had it, but it's not something I can't live without." He played with my hair a bit. "Honestly, I was just curious if it would be better with someone I truly loved instead of some random classmate I went on a few dates with in my early years of high school when I was trying to convince myself I didn't like you."

"Really?" I turn to see him as best as I could. "You mean it?"

"With all my heart." He smiles.

I smile and kiss him softly. "Thank you so much, Kei."

"Always and forever, (C/n)."

We fell asleep in the guest bedroom, both exhausted from crying and feeling bad about stuff that isn't our fault. After he asked me if I had taken my binder off, that is. He still has that little habit to ask every now and then, even though, since I'm in my last year of college, I got top surgery last summer. I smiled that he still worries about that. All is well in the Tsukkishima-(L/n) household.

All is well.

Like I said I don't know how to explain something I don't fully understand myself but I tried and if some of it was incorrect, I'm so very sorry :{