Love Lies Bleeding || gerard way

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Helenas POV

What does it feel like to be dead? Is it like floating in an endless pool of peace and light. Every weight is lifted off of your shoulders and you finally feel happy and at peace with yourself. No more body issues, no more appearance insecurities and you feel the happiest youve been.

If thats what death feels like I want to be here forever. But thats not the case. Im not dead yet, I can hear the beeping of the machines getting louder and louder. The needle that is shoved into my hand feels more uncomfortable. The weight is put back onto my shoulders and I feel as insecure as ever.

I squint a little and blink my eyes open. White walls. White chairs, White bed, White gown. Why is everything so...White? I sat up, feeling a dull pain my my chest. Then it all came back to me.

Me and Gerard getting paired for the project.

Gerard coming upto me, calling me shit.

Me running and some asshole tripping me over.

Falling on my front and breaking my pacemaker

Gerard running me to the hospital....

I thought he hated me. Wouldnt he just put me in a ditch somewhere and go and laugh to his idiot friends about how im laying there to die? But he didnt, he took ran me straight to the hospital. I thought he would just walk there. But no, he ran, full of sprinting with me in his arms.

"Youre really light, you know." That was the last thing I heard before I blacked out.

I wonder what Gerard did when he found about my Heart Block and pacemaker....No body knew but I guess the doctors told him. He probably wasnt here. Probably telling his friends how ghastly I looked lying there in the hospital bed.

The door clicked open and the doctor came in, in a, suprise, surpise. A white doctors coat.

"Ah Miss Black! Youre awake." I nodded. Thanks for pointing out the obvious, dumb ass.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Im okay." I said, my throat feeling sore and hoarse. He passed me the water and I drink half of the glass. "I broke my pacemaker right?"

He nodded, "Mr Way told me that you were tripped over and fell on your front?" Hm, he didnt lie then. I nodded.

"Ah well, we were able to replace it and you should be okay. Any problems come straight to us. Dont try and act brave." He said sternly. I obeyed.

"Oh and Mr Way is outside. You want me to call him in?" The doctor said. I twisted my face in confusion. Gerard was still here? I nodded slowly and the doctor let Gerard in.

He popped his head around the doorway. "Can I..?" He motioned inside the room and I nodded.

He came in and sat down my my bedside and I sat up. Wincing from the dull pain in my chest.

"Are you okay?" I looked at him, his face full of concern. Why was he concerned about me?

I nodded. "When you get a pacemaker put in this always happens." He made an 'O' shape with his mouth and looked down to play with his hands.

"Why are you still here?" His head shot up, I needed and answer from him.

"Why didnt you tell me? He asked, ignoring my question.

"I asked yo--" He cut me off again.

"No. Why didnt you tell me? To stop bullying you? About the your heart block? About your pacemaker?" He looked at me with a pained expression. What the actual fuck.

"Are you insane?!" I yelled, ignoring the pain. He shrunk back. "I didnt tell you because I wouldve gotten bullied more. And the pacemaker?! You wouldnt have cared."

He looked lost for words. Is he completely off his head?! What sort of question is that coming from him.

"Emo, I..." He started out. I scowled at him.

"Get the fuck out."