Love Lies Bleeding || gerard way

Six

Gerards POV

No...She couldnt leave. People needed her, my aunt, my brother, my parents....I need her. 

Her words swirled around in my head that night. 

"I want to die, Gerard"

She did want to go. She was telling the truth, I could see it in her beautiful blue eyes. Kane and Brittany beat her up, told her disgusting things, like nobody wanted her and nobody would ever love her. I cant believe I was once friends with those monsters....

I took her to the hospital after the nurse advised me too. I carried her there like I did when she broke her pacemaker. When I took her there is when I realised what I was doing to her, then I went over home life and how she'd do her best to not see me. I still feel bad about everything, especially when we were best friends once. We actually dated a little in middle school. We were 10.

Flashback....

"Gerard!" I heard her giggle, that giggle made me smile all the time.

I turned to see her running towards me. She looked amazing in her black skinny jeans, Nirvana shirt and patent boots on. I was tall for my age and pretty strong too. I picked her up and twirled her around. 

"Heya Lana." I half smiled at her. I studied her face, her smile was pretty much permanently stuck to her face, which I loved. Because when im not smiling, she is and it makes me smile.  Her eyes were the prettiest shade of blue, rimmed with dark eyeliner and mascara. Her freckles plastered her cheeks and across her nose.

"Youre so beautiful...." I thought.

"Am I?" She giggled and blushed.

"Oh my god...Did I say that out loud?" 

She nodded and blushed a deep red. 

"Sorry....." I mumbled, only feeling utterly embarrased.

"Dont be Geetard!" She giggled, kissing me on the cheek. I blushed and bit my lip and she did the same.

"Do you wanna umm...Go out sometime, like to the um...Movies?" I stuttered. She nodded.

We went to the movies the day after that. I asked her out and we dated for 4 years. Until we got to highschool and it all went wrong. I joined the popular gang and she was on her own. She looked and became more depressed everyday. It did make me wonder sometimes that what I was doing was wrong but I never got to make a full decision. 

I sat next to her, she passed out in my arms on the way and she hadnt woken up yet. I held her hand and pressed my lips to it. Her hands were soft, not rough and they felt normal, unlike some of the other girls ive dated, they had hard, bony hands which made me shudder alot.

"Gee?" She mumbled, my eyes shot up to hers. Her face was pale and her makeup was smeared across her face. "What happened?" She coughed a little and tried to sit up, wincing as she did. HI picked her up lightly and sat her up.

"Kane and Brittany fucked you up." She made an 'O' shape with her mouth.

"Kane stamped on your leg and your right hand, he kicked you enough that you broke three ribs and he punched you in the nose. I carried you here but you passed out from the pain." She looked shocked. 

"How am I gonna get around Gerard? Like, I have two broken arms, a broken leg, I cant use crutches...." She mumbled, she looked upset.

"We'll use a wheelchair, ill push you around." I smiled at her and she threw herself at me.