Love Lies Bleeding || gerard way

Eight

Gerards POV

She just took off. She looked terrified. I totally fucked up. I sunk down on my seat and held my head in her hands. Why did I even tell her? She probably hates me even more than she did before. I felt damp on my palms. I was crying.

I never cried. Except when my Grandma Elena died, me and her were really close but when I met Helena, it all changed, I felt wanted and loved. When we stopped talking, the hole of emptiness and lonliness filled my heart again.

I wiped my eyes and gather our papers and her backpack. I ran out, still crying. Where could she have gone? Where was special to her.

Oh! She has anxiety she always used to goto the park we went to. I ran out of the delapidating doors and frantically looked around. I ran to the right and headed right to the park. I almost ran past a flower shop.

"Hey man can I get one rose please?" I said, wiping the dried, salty tears from my face. He nodded and handed me the rose. I gave him a a dollar.

"Thanks." I said, taking off toward the park. I opened the the rusty gate to the the snow covered park. I didnt see her at first. But when I look harder, I see a tiny hunched up figure sat on the only dry part. She looked like she was sobbing. I slowly approached her whilst the snow crunched and squeaked under me.

"Helena?" My voice crack and her head shot up and her lip quivered. She burst into tears and stuffed her face back in between her knees. I sat next to her and pulled her in, she started to cry into my chest.

"Im so sorry..." I whispered. She shook her head and leant up.

"No no no, its not your fault. I freaked out and bailed im sorry...." She cried again. I pulled her tighter. She deserved none of this.

I kissed her head and she gripped onto my shirt. I pushed back and wiped under her eyes.

"Please stop crying...." I said, sobbing a little myself.

"Only if you do too..." She giggle a little and I smiled through my tears. I caressed her cheek with my hand.

"I meant what I said earlier..." I breathed whilst capturing her never ending beauty.

"Really?" She said, a few tears falling out of her eyes.

"Yes..." I scooted towards her and lifted her chin with my fingers and looked into her green eyes. I leaned forward and brushed my lips across her neck. I felt her stop breathing for a second. She'd been doing that alot lately, courtesy of me.

"Gerard...." She gasped as I sucked a little, leaving a light mark. I pulled away and she looked a bit more than flustered.

"Go on a date with me...Tonight?" I ask, blushing. What I just did to Helena, was totally new.

"Okay..." She whispered. I pulled her into me and cuddled her for a while, my nose stuffed into her hair, her scent was unique, she didnt wear oerfume she just naturally smelled beautiful.

"Come on, lets go home." I mumbled, picking her and her crutches up.

I carried her home and she fell asleep in my arms. I was going to make the girl I loved happy tonight. No matter the price, I was going to make her smile again, I was going to make sure the light behind her eyes was shining bright again.

I opened the front door and shivered at the cold. My mom was at work and Mikey was still at school, hanging around with that group if his. I didnt like them. The guy, who I think was Frank, obviously liked the look of Helena. He made her blush and giggle and smile. I want to do that. 

I carried Lana upto my bedroom and laid her on the bed and she curled up naturally with the blankets on her. I took off my shirt and climbed in beside her and wrapped my arm around her waist and snuggled my face into her neck and fell asleep with Helena by my side.