The start of a crush

#The Fight Part 2

Kara POV

I wake up in bed alone missing Zee in my arms. I never really did end up going to the concert not having the energy too after feeling my heart break as she yelled at me to leave. She really didn't want me there. We had a date planned today but I'm not even sure if where still going.

I need to talk to her I really miss her, it's all my fault I messed up. What was I thinking not listening to her and then prepared to ditch her for a stupid concert. I didn't even go to the concert.

"Should I talk to her?" The question stays in my head for awhile before I decide she needs space. "I can always talk to her Tomorrow at school since we're in a few classes together." I sigh. I just hope she isn't upset again because I was really looking forward to are date today. I was starting to get used to waking up next to her too.

I curl up on my bed hugging my pillow, pretending the softness of it is her. "I sometimes wonder how soft her skin would feel against my arms." I whisper to myself.

I wonder what she's doing right now if she misses me as much as I do....

Zee's POV

I wake up slowly sitting up rubbing my eyes I feel like a mess, I get up from bed and stare into the mirror. My hair is a mess my eyes are bloodshot.

I still don't know how to feel with kara I'm still upset. I start to think if I was over reacting. "Was I out of line?" I ask my reflection. I only sigh knowing they won't respond back. "Kara is the first person I've even dated.... maybe it was too soon." I say to myself.

I stare down at the ground my thoughts drifting to the idea now. "Maybe we shouldn't even be together..." the thought makes me sad, Do I really want to break up with Kara...?

"Kara is probably the best thing to ever happen to me..." I tell myself and then I think back to last night and how she treated me like I didn't matter. Did I mean so little to her? Have I just become something boring to her, she doesn't treat me like she used to. I remember kara's always happy expression to see me and how she always wants to hold or kiss me but she was more interested in her phone.... she wasn't even listening to me. Does she even still love me?

I still love her I still care about her, she still makes my heart melt but I doubt she feels the same..."this relationship is only one sided...." I sigh. I don't want to I really don't want to leave kara but its the best thing for her...she deserves someone who can actually make her happy and even keep her interested. "Someone who can give her what she wants...."I shake my head my head hurting from holding back my own tears.

I pound my fists against the counter. "It doesn't matter what I want." I tell myself. I don't matter because all that matters is her happiness and that isn't even me anymore. I can't even stop being upset with her for doing something like hurting my feelings.

I sigh...I should get this over with. As soon as I fix my hair looking presentable and into a pair of new clothes. I stair at myself in the mirror,"this is something I have to do." I tell myself before leaving and heading to her house.

As I near her place I take a deep breath. Walking over to her front door, I just hope her parents aren't the ones to open the door. I knock on her door kara opening it shortly after, when she sees me her eyes go wide. "Zee? What are you doing here?" She asks then quickly correcting herself. "I mean don't get me wrong I'm happy to see you but I just thought you wouldn't want to see me." She finishes.

"Kara we need to talk." Is my only response. I really just need to get this over with I don't want to break down in front of her.

She looks at me her eyes going to worry. "Is something wrong? Are you okay?" She asks reaching a hand out to me.

I take a step back, I can't back out now. "Kara..."I start taking a small breath. "..I'm breaking up with you." I finally say.

I watch her eyes going wide as tears start to form, she's frozen in place from shock. I can't I can't stay here and watch her cry in front of me. "I'm sorry...I just wasn't ready for us." I explain before turning around and walking away. I feel an arm grab my hand.

I know it's kara hand. "Zee please don't leave me I'm sorry I promise I I'll always listen to you and always put you above everything else." She begs. Don't look at her. Don't look at her I keep telling myself.

"Please let me go kara." I ask hoping she lets me go.

She holds on for a few seconds more before letting my hand go. "I didn't deserve you." She finishes and I close my eyes trying to blink the tears away.

"You didn't...you deserved better." I finally say before walking away.

I had to do this, this was the right decision to make. Why does it feel like I made a mistake....? In the end it was my fault..