Killing a Heart

5: Separate Paths

"York New City, it's been a while since we were last here." Gon said as the two headed to a train station that would take them to the apartment of the next target.

"Kil, are you still upset from the airship?"

Killua hadn't talked at all since the argument. "I don't get why you always throw a big fuss over girls. I mean they usually flirt with you first, so I don't get it if your jealous."

I'm not jealous you big idiot. I don't want them taking you away from me.

"You gotta come to terms with it Kil. If I find the one ,one day, then I'll gladly be with that person I love. And instead of being like my dad, I'd bring the whole family along with me on my adventures."

You always talk about this. Leaving me one day, and I hate it.

"I'm sorry about whatever upset you. Let's just focus on the mission at hand."

He's going to leave me.

He felt a jab in his heart.

Killua stopped at the entrance of the train station, and Gon stopped alongside him.

"What is it? You gonna talk?"

He's an idiot. He has no idea. He's going to leave me.

"Gon..." Killua looked into his eyes.

"I don't want to do this anymore."

"What do you mean by that?"

"You can find the Hunter Hunter on your own. I'm done with you, and all this stupid hunter stuff. I don't even know what I'm hunting for anymore. Nothing has the same thrill as it used too." "What are you saying?" Gon questioned in confusion. "I'm leaving you. Don't come looking for me." Killua started stepping away. "What!? Why is this so out of nowhere? What?-" Gon went to grab onto Killua, but Killua had already activated Godspeed and was out of sight in milliseconds.

Gon wanted to run after him and get answers, but he had a mission. He had to find the Hunter Hunter before more people were killed. "Selfish, selfish!" Gon lost his cool, and stomped around in anger. "Killua you asshole!!" He screamed at Killua who was no longer present. Pedestrians who were walking past him gave him confused looks and glares, some even covered their children's ears.
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What the hell am I doing!? Did I really just snap and leave!?

Killua already knew where he was heading. Not necessarily home, but the place where he was raised. The Republic of Padokia was his destination, and if he was lucky he could get there in a few days.

I feel like Ging, Running from my problems. But I'm running from Gon for a whole other reason.

Killua knew that Gon and him had separate goals for their futures. He cared about Gon, and didn't want to hold him back any longer.

Maybe if I'm gone he'll find the one. I'm selfish, I've been holding him back for myself.

Killua laughed at himself. Then tears pricked his eyes as he ran.

How pathetic am I?