Killing a Heart

14: Realization

Killua ran in the first direction that came to mind. He had to get somewhere isolated so that he wouldn't accidentally kill people.

After a while he found himself in and open feild. There were no buildings for miles.

"Ahhhhhhhh!!!" Killua screamed with all his might, releasing every ounce of aura in his body.

It was like a hideously huge lightning storm.

He sobbed and screamed grabbing at his aching heart.

"How could I ever love someone as selfish as you!?"

"FUCK YOU!!" He screamed as loud as he could. "FUCK YOU GON FREECSS!!" He screamed so loud he thought his throat was going to bleed.

He punched the ground until his fists were raw and bloody. He screamed until he couldn't talk, and he cried until he couldn't. He was dehydrated. He became dizzy and delusional. If he had been in a better mood he could have done something about it, but he felt broken. He didn't care if he died or not. He didn't care if nobody found him. He fell to the ground, face first.

He never wanted to see Gon again. At the same time, he wanted to go running back like the whole thing had never happened.

What have I done?

Gon had told him their students would die. What asshole would have balls enough to kill their students.

Alluka is my student...

ALLUKA IS MY STUDENT!

Realization hit like a punch to the face.

Killua tried to get up, but his body was done. He couldn't move. He didn't even know if anyone would find him. The feeling of being so helpless to the situation scared him. He wanted to cry in frustration but he couldn't. He ,the worlds best Nen user, was no more than a helpless child right now.

I will sleep, and when I'm rested up I will join Gon and get rid of this Hunter Hunter, and after I will say my goodbyes.

Killua felt less helpless now that he had made a plan. He willingly fell asleep awaiting for his energy to return, so he could put his plan into place.