Killing a Heart

8: Zoldyck

The door creaked open.

"Welcome home Master Killua." "Oh hey, Canary." Killua was in a terrible mood, and he did not look like he had any rest for a few days. His hair wasn't even put up, it laid messily on his shoulders.

Canary was now the head butler of the Zoldyck family. When she first received the title she started showing traits Gotoh had. But now she was almost exactly like him.

"You should get some rest Master."

"Where is Alluka?" "But Master you should rest-" "No." he began walking upstairs, and she followed.

"Kil, you're home? It's not even a holiday." His mother came running over to him. "Have you finally had a change of heart?" "Yes, I'll be the head of this family-" "For real!?" His mother almost passed out from joy. He continued up the steps to his room.

Once he was there he closed the door in Canary's face, and collapsed on his bed.

"Onii-chan, why are you back so soon?"

Alluka stood in the large window, illuminated by the glow of the moon behind her. The curtains swayed to the subtle breeze outside.

Killua had been so exhausted, he didn't even noticed her get in.

"Because I ran away from Gon."

"Why's that?" She stepped closer.

"I've been selfish Alluka. I've been holding him back, because I want him all to myself. I'm just an obstacle he needs to get around-" "No you are not." She sat on the side of his bed next to him. "He cares deeply for you. You are his best friend."

Killua sat up and faced her. Tears streamed down his exhausted pale face.

"I don't want to just be his best friend."

"Do you love him?" "Yes." "Does he know how you feel?" "No, but-" "No buts! You have to tell him. You aren't selfish, you're a coward." Killua made another pained expression. "And if he rejects me then what?" "Then it's over. Move on." She pat his head, then her face changed. "Killua, tell him you love him." "Nanika." Killua wiped his tears away and messy hair out of his face before he smiled. "He'll come after me, I know he will. I'll tell him then. If I'm rejected, it'll just be awkward being with him any longer. I'll just try to find a new goal, and be the head of the family while I'm searching."

"Good." Alluka said. "You should get some rest now. I'll protect you from Milluki while you sleep. "Huh? What's wrong with Milluki?" "He said last time you where here for Christmas, you stepped on one of his figurines. And now he wants to kill you." "Oh, okay." He laid back down. "Thanks..." he mumbled drifting into a deep slumber.