Killing a Heart

15: An Understanding

"Where is Killua!?" Gon got up so quickly, he didn't noticed his foot was on his cloak, and slipped.

"Alluka, where is he?" He said getting up slower this time.

"Onii-Chan does not wish to see you."

"But I need his help-" "Why?" Alluka asked innocently. "Because I really need his help. There is this evil hunter and I can't do it alone. I will die without him. I feel so helpless without him. I can't save the innocent victims. They aren't even just any people. They are our students, the students that have so much potential and we put so much hard work into them." Gon felt like crying because he was so frustrated.

"So I will die?" "Probably."

Alluka didn't seem fazed by this. "You are aware you just killed onii-Chan's heart, right?"

"What do you mean?"

"He confessed his feelings to you, but you dismissed him with telling him to come with you and blaming him for stuff. And the whole: 'How could I ever love someone as selfish as you!?'"

Gon started feeling like shit. He didn't mean for the rejection to be so harsh, his mind was just on other things during the moment.

Killua was in love with him? For how long? He didn't even notice.

Gon hadn't thought much of relationships, but he had always thought his future would be an ordinary one. He wanted an ordinary future, but at the same time he never saw himself leaving Killua's side again.

"Onii-chan has liked you for a long time you know. "

A long time?

Gon was questioning himself.

What do I feel for Killua?

They were best friends. Gon cared for him. Gon thought long and hard. Whenever he thought of the future the only thing that popped up in his mind was Killua. Even if he did have his own family one day, Killua would still be with him.

They had been together so long he couldn't see himself without the other. They were bound together by some unseen force, and Gon was just realizing this.

A future without Killua is a meaningless future.

Gon began to hurt. What had he done? He hurt his best friend. He wasn't taking into consideration what he had to say.

"I-I've got to apologize Alluka. Where is he?" "You've been out for a day. Who knows where he is. What about the whole mission with this evil hunter?" She asked. "There are other pro hunters on this case, it can wait. In the meantime, deliver the information I tell you to chairman Cheadle." "Why not text her?-" "Phones broken." He laughed before telling the girl all he knew on the Hunter Hunter, and leaving.