Killing a Heart

12: Sister Talk

"Onii-chan,"

Killua opened his eyes.

"You awake?"

"Yes, I'm awake."

Killua sat up. "You should wash up, then I can braid your hair." She smiled. "Yeah, I'll do that."

Killua felt anxious. It was good being with Alluka, but knowing that he was finally going to have to confess was a scary feeling. And he knew this confession would go one of two ways. The rejection and split up, or the unlikely reciprocation and continuation of being together.

After his shower Killua got into new clean clothes, and sat on the floor for Alluka to do his hair.

"You know you don't hafta be an assassin Alluka." Killua said, as the girl went through his long hair, and braided it. "I know, I just find assassination more fun than hunter missions. I mean it's cool and all being a hunter, but I just prefer staying in the family business." "Geez, with that attitude why don't you take my place as head of the family-" "I can't do that." She laughed.

"How much hair do you even have? It grows longer each time I see you." She said yanking on it. There was a time in the past that Gon even told him he looked like Kite. "Or is it that you grow it out to appear more feminine so that a certain somebody will find you attractive-" "Shut up." Killua said looking back at her. "Quit moving your head or it will end up crooked."

"Onii-chan, why do you love Gon?"

"I love him because..."

His feelings were hard to put into words.

"He's adorable. He's so positive all the time no matter what. He's the first person to ever show me kindness and friendship. He's the first to see me as me, not some killing machine. He's my best friend. He's a complete idiot at times, but that doesn't make him any less special. He's...so far out of reach." Killua sighed looking at the ground. "He's hurt me without knowing so many times. He's so dense." "Okay quit your moping." Alluka tugged on a strand of hair.

"I thought you and him had a special assignment from the Hunter's Association. You think it's really okay to bail on something they sent the two of you on?" "No, I don't feel like it. If people die then they die. I don't want to go back with Gon. They can find their own way of solving this one-Ouch!" The girl tugged on his finished braid. "That's awfully stupid of you onii-chan."