Patience|New Jersey boys

"Cause there be no sunlight.."

I woke up and realized I fell asleep. I looked at my clock and saw that it was 10:36pm. I can't stand being in this house. I need to get out. I go downstairs.

"IZZY." Someone yells.

"What?" I answer back.

"You are going to therapy, whether you like it or not, you have no choice." Oscar says.

"WHY DO I HAVE TO?" I raise my voice.

"BECAUSE I SAID SO." Oscar yells back.

"Not a valid reason." I mumble going past him, to my purse.

"YOU ARE GOING, STARTING TOMORROW" Oscar yells.

"NO" I yell back.

"you are going to excuses." He lowers his voice.

"Fuck everyone." I mutter.

I grab my purse and my car keys and get out. I go to my car and start it up, then I drive away. My mind filled with thoughts and emotions, so much that I didn't realize where I was going. Mattia doesn't like you, you're nothing, mar cheated for a good reason, everyone treats you like a fucking baby. Just rushed through my head. Tears filled my eyes as I accelerated the car, the speed hit 60. I let go of the gas as I feel nothing in my body no more. I didn't even care that I was about to drive off a cliff. Then something came to me that made me slam onto my breaks. Holy shit, I-I almost killed myself.

I step out of the car and sit on the pavement. I start sobbing, thinking, was I really not good enough? I knew that I couldn't drive myself back home. So I called kairi.

"Come here quick please." I managed to get out with my hysterically crying.

"Yeah yeah, where are you." Kairi says softly

"I- I don't k-know." I cry even more.

"Okay okay, turn on your location, I'll be ther soon." Kairi says quickly.

"Kay" I say and hung up.
I made sure to put on my location.

Kairi's POV.

After Izzy called me I immediately panicked. I bust into Mattia's room to see him and Cynthia watching TV, gross.

"Mattia, Izzy is in trouble." I say out of breathe.

I swear I never seen him jumped so high up into the Air.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" He says obviously panicking.

"Cmon we got to go now." I reply skipping on my uggs.

"Wait no Mattia stay." CYnThiA said.

"Sorry I have to go." He says slipping on his shoes.

And this bitch has the AUDACITY to say

"I don't care about that slut, stay. Here."

"Nah fuck yuh Cynthia, Izzy is the realest girl I've ever met, I was planning on breaking up with you since you were fucking quinton." Mattia says flipping her off and running out of the house with me.

Izzy's POV.

It's been 20 minutes since I called kairi and still no answer. I'm starting to hyperventilate and it's NOT OKAY. I'm at the point were I'm crying so much I can't even breathe. Then I see head light pull up. I quickly stand up, shaking and walk over to the car. Mattia and Kairi both run out of the car. I don't care how mad I'm at him right now, I just need someone with me.

I go towards Mattia as he pulls me into a big hug. I cry into his chest as I hear a couple sniffles from him too. Kairi joins the hug. Now we are just there in the middle of the road looking like clowns.

I pull away and look deep into Mattia's eyes as he does the same.
I whisper "Can you take me home, please, I'll tell you on the way."
Mattia nods and he's looks at kairi, he nods as well.

Mattia gets into my drivers seat as I get into the passenger seat.

"I'm depressed. I got diagnosed with depression earlier. My mom was depressed, I t-think she killed herself. She couldn't take it anymore. Oscar was yelling at me saying I had to go to therapy. I made a big scene then left out of the door with my keys and purse in my hands. Next thing I knew was me almost driving off a cliff.." I explain with hot tears running down my face.

I look over at Mattia and see he is crying too.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Cynthia. She actually my toxic ex who wanted me back. I obviously said no. But the she blackmailed me from old videos I had of us together that I didn't post. But I broke up with her today because I realized I had feelings for you." He says sobbing.

"Mattia, besides Diego. I'm sure you can help me find myself again, you're the one that actually makes me happy in the inside. I have feelings for you too" I look at him with tears pouring down my face.

The rest of the car ride was a comfortable silence. Weird, especially after what just happened. We got back to my house. I asked Mattia if he could stay the night since it was the weekend tomorrow. He said yes of course. We were just hanging out in my room with my in his arms, until this song came on "it will rain" by Bruno Mars. The song that helped me get passed my mothers actual death.

"Cause there'll be no sunlight, if I loose you baby." I started singing.

"And there'll be no clear skies, if I loose you baby," Mattia joined in.

"And just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same."

"If you walk away.."

"Everyday it will rain."

"Rain."

"Rain."

"Rain..."