Patience|New Jersey boys

"She got her own thing"

Fast Forward to the Weekend...

Me and Diego get into the car. We go to the cemetery where Jazmyn is at. I get out of the car, as I feel my body tense up.

"Hey, it's gonna be okay." Diego rubs my arm.

I take a deep breath and walk to her grave. This is my first time seeing her since we got back from New York. I feel like I haven't seen her in forever. I set flowers down in front of the grave stone. I gave Diego a "can you go for like 5 minutes" look and he went to the car.

"Hey Jazz. It's been a minute. Me and Diego came back from New York, and Oscar got out of jail. I've met new people. They're actually really nice. I know you would've liked them. Especially this one kid. His name is Mattia. There's just something about him that I feel but with no one else. Just him. I hope they aren't feelings. Because remember how my last relationship with mar worked out. Yikes. But I don't know, he is really attractive, he cares about my feelings, he is really sweet. Oh, that's right. They joined the santos. I know crazy. But they all seem really committed into it so we gave them a chance." I take a deep breath and let it all out. "I'm sorry Jazz, I wasn't there to protect you, I shouldn't have even planned your party, you didn't even want one. I shouldn't have pulled you out on the dance floor. I'm sorry that I had you in this gang mess. It never should've been you. I'm sorry Jazz. I'll see you soon." I finish wiping off my hot tears from my face. I turn around and see Diego leaning against the car with a apologetic look on his face. I nod my head and walk over.

I get into the car. I sit there for a second then just start pouring tears.
"It's okay." Diego says.
"It's not tho Diego, it's not, I was the reason she's not here anymore." I sob even more.
"There wasn't anything you could've or couldn't do." Devil replies pulling me into a hug.
"I just wanna go home." I sniffle.

We get to the house. I go inside and see Alex, Devyn, Avani, Sandro, Kairi, Mattia, Alejandro, all talking to each other in the kitchen. I look at them and give them a small smile, then I proceed upstairs to my bedroom. I crawl into my bed and silently cry.

Mattia's POV

"Hey what's wrong with her." I ask confused.
"She went to go see jazymn today at the cemetery." Alex says grabbing a water bottle out of The fridge.
"I drive her there every other weekend. Today was just harder because she hasn't seen her since we got back from ny." Diego adds to Alex's reply.
"Shit" I mumble under my breath.
"Hey I'll be right back." I say going upstairs to izzys room.

I walk in and see her in the corner of her bed bunched up. I slowly walk over to her and sit down at the edge of the bed.

"Izzy?" I say softly.

"W-what." Izzy could barely say without completely sobbing her heart out.

"Come here." I reply opening my arms out.
She lifts up her head and throws herself into my arms. I wrap them around her so she feels safe and secure.

"I'm sorry baby." I softly say stroking threw her hair.

"It's not your fault." She sniffles.

"She's in a better place now, she looking down at you, I know she would want you to be happy." I reply.

"I should've done something, pulled her down with me, turned her away so the bullet would've just gone threw me and killed me." She starts to uncontrollably cry.

"Princess there wasn't anything that you could've or couldn't have done. It's fate baby, the universe does some jacked up things, but that's the way it's always gonna be, good people get hurt for no reason, that's why you have to live your life, before it ends." I say.

"I just can't live with the thought of her death is because of me." She sobs.

"Then don't. Let's go somewhere tonight, I'll pick you up and 8:30, trust me it will be good." I smile.
She looks up with her blood shot, puffy eyes and gives me a smile in return, then a nod.

"That will be nice tia." She replies back.

This girl got me fucked up already.