A/N Yes I'm aware about them breaking up but I wanna continue this book and I still have hope for them.
⚠️suicide thoughts and doing it⚠️
⚠️very emotional⚠️
⚠️suicide⚠️
Charlis pov: I'm at the hype house and I scroll through YouTube and find a video titled "still softish diss track on lil huddy" I'm confused and click on it. It only has 100 views since it was released a minute ago I watch it and I start to have tears running down my face. I walk down stairs and say "chase what the fuck is this about" and he says "charls I'm sorry it's true" and I say "what?! When?!" He says "two nights ago we didn't have sex but I wanted to" I start to cry. And yelling at chase. Thomas walks down stairs and says "charli how about you leave and cool off" I say "so your kicking me out?!" He looks down and I say "fine" and I run up stairs and grab the things that I actually need. Dixie walks down stairs and says "if one of us leaves we both leave" and she also grabs some stuff.
1 month later
Charlis pov: me and Dixie rented a house in la and we have been staying here. I'm depressed I only post drafts and I cry all day everyday I walk to the bathroom over everything. I look at my arm full of cuts. And think this isn't enough. I look over at anxiety pills and think maybe I will take all of them. I don't feel anything. I might as well. I start to write suicide notes
To Dixie: thank you for always being by my side through it all. I love you so much your the best sister ever. I'm sorry I'm so weak I just can't take it anymore. I love you we will see each other again
To griffin: take care of my sister. She will need you through this. I love you griff thank you for being like a brother to me. Tell you and Dixies future kids that aunt charli loves them.
To the hype house: thank you for being the best family ever. I love y'all. I may not be apart of the hype house anymore but I will forever have y'all in my hearts. Y'all will go big places. I just can't take it anymore to see y'all go those places.
To madi: you will always be my best friend and you have always supported me through everything. I love you. I'm sorry I'm too weak to live anymore. Keep your head up bad bitty.
To chase: chase you are my first and last love. Even though you no longer love me I have always and always will love you. When you get married one day treat her right and don't hurt her. I'm sorry for leaving it's just I can't take the pain that I have on me anymore and I guess I just need you to function. I love you.
I dial 911 and say "there has been a suicide" the operator says "who is the victim" I say "me" and I swallow all the pills and drop down to the ground everything going black.
