HE WAS NEVER MINE (Her Version)

HE WAS NEVER MINE - 5

Sanskar - Swara was pregnant when she left the house. She was carrying a child, my child and everyone knows but didn't told me anything about it. I was so anxious and also feeling so guilty. I know I don't love Swara but still she is carrying my child in her womb. I don't know how she must be handling it. No no she should be here in front of me. I'm not a dumb, ignorant to not know how many difficulties a woman might have to face during pregnancy without her husband by her side. No she should be here with me. I should be with her, with our baby. Yes I will bring her back and for that I need to talk to Lucky he knows where Swara is.

(Phone conversation)
Sanskaar - Hello Lucky where is Swara? Where does she live now? I need to find her. I have to bring her back. Hello. Where the hell are you not responding damn it. (Impatiently)
Laksh - bhai bhai comedown. What happened? Bhai do you remember everything. Swara will be so happy bh... (Interrupted by Sanskaar)
Sanskaar- no I don't remember anything but I need to know her present address Laksh please don't waste my time (getting frustrated)
Laksh - sorry bhai I can't tell you that I have promised her that I.... (again interrupted by Sanskaar)
Sanskaar- damn with your promise Laksh just tell me where is Swara? Please (sounding helpless)
Laksh - why do you care bhai? (Helplessly)
Sanskaar - I care damn it. I care because she shouldn't be alone in this time. (Frustrated)
I care because she needs me now, her husband more than anything else. I care for her Laksh, I care for our baby. Please Laksh please (crying).
Laksh- baby(shocked)
Sanskar - I know Laksh and what hurts me more is that you all know about Swara's pregnancy yet nobody told me anything why Laksh why? (Helpless, defeated)
Laksh - because Swara didn't want to pressurise you bhai. She wanted your love not sympathy. And after whatever she has gone through I think she deserves to make one decision about her life without any kind of pressure or emotional stress bhai. I can't tell you where is she. But I will call her and tell her that you know about her pregnancy and you want to talk to her. After that let her decide what she wants.
(Saying this Laksh ended the call. He can't hear his brother's helpless voice anymore. He immediately called Swara to tell her everything)

On the other side Sanskaar is feeling lost. He doesn't know what destiny has stored for him. When he was with Kavita they have to face many difficulties. Even before they could even enjoy their married life God snatched his Kavita from him. And then he lived his life in illusion for 2 years and in between all these Swara was dragged unnecessarily. Now he doesn't know what to do how to feel about all these things. Yes the news of Swara's pregnancy was shocking for him yet the feeling of becoming a father brought a sense of peace and responsibility altogether. He is not sure about his feelings for Swara. After watching the video he is lost. The way he was looking at Swara in that video clearly shows how much she mattered to him. The way his eyes were expressing his feelings for her can be anything but an illusion. Did he really love Swara or it was just because she was pretending to be Kavita for him. But he never looked at Kavita like that. With Kavita it was more like compassion, empathy, bond of friendship which made their love strong. With Kavita he felt he can be himself and Kavita won't judge him. With him Kavita always felt a sense of security. His love for Kavita is matured and empathetic. But the way he was looking at Swara was not that simple it was like he was passionate for her and that thing didn't go well with his consciousness. He is feeling as if he has used Swara for his own feelings and now that he doesn't remember her he have left her stranded. He feels responsible towards Swara. He is feeling helpless, clueless. He doesn't know how to cope up with all these feelings. He is getting impatient more and more with every passing second.

Precape - Swasan's 1st phone conversation after separation.