HE WAS NEVER MINE (Her Version)

HE WAS NEVER MINE - 8

Someone have lost 15 lakhs and 70 thousand rupees from his account so don't skip the Author's note at bottom.
Now let's continue with today'a chapter.

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After hanging up the call Swara again went into the memory lane but these time her memories are not just about Sanskaar. While caressing her baby bump she started talking to her child makeing promises of giving it all the love she has in her heart.

I will give you everything that I didn't received baby. I know  right now I have behaved very rudely with your father. But whatever I'm doing is only for you. You know baby you are the first person whom I can love as much as I want, with whom I can be myself. With you nor I have to pretend to be someone else like I had to do with your father, neither I have to think thousands of times about the consequences of my action like I used to do with my parents.

My mom and Ragini's mom means Janki chachi are school friends. From school time they were together but due to mom's intelligence and good marks she was more popular in her school where as Janki chachi is an introvert who doesn't like to socialize much. During college too mom was more popular than Janki chachi. With time it became an unsaid rule that wherever mom and Janki chachi would go every attention must be on mom while Janki chachi will sit quietly with a book outside the limelight.

But it all changed after their marriage. Mom and Papa's marriage was arranged marriage where as Janki chachi and chachu's marriage was half arranged and half love marriage. When Papa's family came to see mom for marriage proposal, Janki chachi was also present there as mom's friend. Chachu had instantly fallen in love with chachi beauty and silent nature as he himself is also like that only.

Both marriages were done at the same time. But from very beginning the difference between the relationship were very clearly observed by mom. Sometimes intelligence can be curse too. If mom was less intelligence then she might not have understand the difference which in turn might not have created so many problems in the following years.

For papa marriage was a responsibility. His emotional investment on the marriage was not enough for mom to feel comfortable around him. On the other hand chachu was doing anything and everything he can do to make chachi feel love and comfort in the new relation. Nobody noticed these small differences in the behaviour of both brothers towards their newly wedded wife except for mom. Still she tried to adjust but the difference started increasing when Raghav bhaiya was born two months before Kavita di becoming the first son of next generation. But still things were ok. But when I was born Papa was very disappointed, which affected his and mom's relationship as well. Mom started losing importance in papa's life and thought me to be responsible for it.

In searching her importance in papa's life she lost her whole persona. Her friendship with Janki was lost, her passion for cooking was lost, she started to do everything which she never liked just to get papa's attention. But it never worked.

No she doesn't hate me, I'm her daughter after all but, she never loved me the way she loved Kavita di or Janki chachi loves Ragini.

I remember me and Kavita di, we both used to participate in our school's annual day singing competition and every time we both used to get some prizes. Mom always appreciated Kavita di's efforts but when it comes to me she just used to say congratulations and that's it, as if she was saying it to someone else's child.

Earlier I used to feel bad but now I understand why she became like that. A girl leaves her everything behind to build a new family with her life partner, her husband became her world but when the same husband doesn't pay her attention or just get involve in his work then it became very difficult for the wife to cope up with the emotional challenges.