You breakdown. You are crying uncontrollably. You physically and mentally couldn't take the pain anymore. Your heart hurt from what you were trying to store in the back of your mind and never let it out. You tried to get rid of it, but now all the memories are back.
"Hey, honey, are you alright", Laura asks.
No response.
"You good", your mom says.
No response.
You run inside and collapse into a heap on your bed.
Why? Why me? You think to yourself. Why now? Here? In front of everyone? We have to address our issue? They will now know. Our past.
Laura and your mom come into your room and ask what's wrong.
"It's just", you say
"What is it", your mom asks
"There's something no
one knows", you say
"Is it just you or is there someone else involved", Laura asks.
"It's, it's someone else and me", you say
"Then let's go address the problem outside", your mom says while fixing you up.
You guys get outside and you keep your head low.
"So what's the issue", Taylor asks.
"I'm not sure, all we got from her is that there is someone else involved, your mom says
That's when you look up. You see guilt on Joshua's face. At this point, you feel like you are going to cry again, but you hold it in.
Then the unexpected happened. Joshua came and wrapped his arms around you. God you missed his arms around you. You can hear gasps from them, but you don't care. All you want right now is Josh's arms wrapped right around you making you feel safe. That's how you have always liked it. Josh's arms around you never letting go.
He let's go of you and takes a step back. He smirks at you. And you even missed that smirk of his. And his lips. Man you really missed those lips. Of course you have kissed other guy's lips before, but none were like Josh's. But you snap out of it when you remember what actually happened that ended you guys..........
"Why don't we go talk about this in privacy", your dad says.
"Yeah, um, Winter, Charles, Sam, Hannah, Allison, Claire, Ashley, why don't you guys play out here for a while", Taylor says.
"It's dark out", Hannah says
"It's ok, just for a while, ok", Laura says
"Ok", all of them say
When you guys get inside, your guy's parents sit across from you and Josh on the couch, while you are sitting next to him.
"So, is there something we don't know", your dad says.
"Um", Joshua starts to say.
"No, it's ok, I'll explain you say.
"So, we have been friends since the fifth grade. We met when he sat next to me on the first day of that year. Then comes around the sixth grade. We were scared to death. But we stuck to each other's sides like we would never be apart. Never in our wildest dreams. Then the seventh grade comes around, we are inseparable. And I mean, inseparable. Nothing could split us. We became real close. Then the eight grade comes around. We hung out wayyy more than we should have. We couldn't get enough of each other. So the day before we got out of school, Josh had asked me out. We went out that night and had a great time. We did everything together. When one of us fell, the other would fall with us. When we were in a situation, the other would be there to help. When things got hectic, the other would calm us down. We were always there for each other. Everything was going great. You know, nothing to worry about. Until, tenth grade, we had been together two years, no one knew. Josh had told me he loved me. I didn't say it back. So, I um, we um, haven't talked since then. And yes, I know it's only been six weeks, but we tried to flush each other out. We just never knew we were neighbors", you say
°•~Flashback~•°
"Hey babe" Josh says as you guys are at your hideout. (It's kinda like an apartment, but they don't have to pay)
"Hey",you say, "how was your day love"
"You ask me that every day, and we spend every second with each other", he says laughing
"Yeah, I know, but I just like knowing how your day was", you say
"Fine, my day was good" Josh says
"That's what I like to hear", you say, as you get up to put something away.
"I love you y/n", he says.
You freeze. Yes, you love him, but why can't you say so? This can't go well, you think to yourself.
"I um, I have to go", you say.
"Yea, ok, see you later", Josh says.
You walk out the door.
•~Flashback over~•
"I'm so sorry", Taylor says
"I didn't think you guys would have had that much of a past", your stepdad says
"That sure is one past", Laura says
"Yeah, but how did you guys keep it a secret for two years", your mom says
"Not sure, we just did I guess", Josh says
"Yeah, we sure did", you say, "the thing is, I loved him, I just really couldn't say it"
Josh frowns some. "I did um right a um song for you tho", he says
"You did", you ask
He nods.
"Well, let's hear it", Laura says.
"Yeah", the adults all say
(This is probably my most favorite chapter to write. Talking about their past.
